Life and Pregnancy

Chapter 12- Pregnacy

Laya

I still have to go to school even though I'm pregnant. I'm probably gonna stop at like 4 in a half months. Because that's when I start showing and that's embarrassing. Plus I don't think I'm supposed to go after 7 months anyway. I'm just trying to figure out where I'ma go after I have this baby. This is just a stressful ass time for me. Life's hard as fuck,and it's gonna be even harder these next couple months.

I also have to find a job. Until i have to take off for maternity leave. I don't know how the fuck I'm going to get back on my feet. And I can't believe Marco bitch ass. He ain't shit.

I'm just laying here thinking before I have to go to school. "You ready?" Marco says coming in here. He's going to be taking me to school. "Yea." I say with an attitude. I don't really care anymore. It can't any worse than this.

We're in the car on our way to school."So if it's going to cause this many problems,why don't you just abort the baby. I think that's what's best for both of us anyway. I know you got the money." He says. "Ok and? I don't wanna abort my baby, even though it's gonna cause hella life threatening problems but I don't wanna abort it,I already love it so much." I say. I'm so serious. I became in love with it when I found out actually. "How do you love a stranger? It's not even formed foreal yet, it just look like a speck." He says. "Ok for one,it's not a stranger,it's my child. It's literally growing inside of me right now, and I'm sure I will gain more love for it over these 8 months. And two I don't fucking care,I love that speck." I say."Wow,you are serious about this."he says. "So how we supposed to find out the gender?"he adds. "Hell yea I'm serious,and I don't know,take me to the hospital or something,at about 5 months." I say. He sighs. "Wow Laya." He says turning into the school parking lot. "Wow Marco." I say. "You won't be happy until another man raise your son or daughter." I say. "Fuck your mean another man? Where you gone find another man at and if you do,I'm sure he ain't gone wanna take care of a child that ain't his." He says. "You'd be surprised." I say. I don't really mean that,I just wanted to see his reaction.

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I'm in fourth period and I'm hungry as shit man. Soon as lunch come I'ma walk to the gas station to buy hella shit,because this school food taste like cold McDonald's fries. You would think I'm depressed about this whole situation but I'm not. I don't really know why either. I'm just not worried.

Class ends and I'm now in the hallway on my way to lunch. I put my books in my locker then head on to lunch. "Aye Laya,where was you last night?" Julian asks. "I'll tell you after school." I say. "No why can't you just tell me now." He says stopping me. "Because it's a long story." I say walking into the cafeteria. I'm going through the doors in the cafeteria to go to the gas station.

It's just me myself and I walking. I'm probably not going to start showing until about 4 months. I walk inside the gas station then grab three bags of chips, a brisk tea,two packs of m&ms and a pop tart. I walk to the register and start paying for the stuff. I pay then walk out. I start walking back to the school. It's not a long walk from here. About five minutes. Lunch is 45 minutes.

I arrive back at the cafeteria and sit at the table I usually sit at. It's usually full but it's about half empty. I guess they ain't here. I'm not sitting with Marco today because he been getting on my damn nerves. I don't even like him like that anymore. He basically showed his true colors. I'm done with his pussy ass. We got Enough females in this world for him to act like one.

I'm in my last class waiting for it to end so I can go home. Ima ask him to take me to the mall so I can buy two suitcases. One for me and one for my baby. I would buy clothes but I have to wait to find out the gender. I don't necessarily want a specific one. I don't really care if it's a boy or a girl. I also am going to try and eat healthy. Or healthier than I was eating.

The bell rings interrupting my thoughts. I get up then walk to my locker to get my book bag. I get it then walk out the building. "Aye Laya,so tell me what happened?" He asks. I'm trying to debate in whether I should tell him or not. I think I should just tell him. "Well,Cindy found out that I was pregnant then kicked me out and called me a hoe,even though I only slept with one guy one time." I explain. He looks surprised. "What the fuck? You pregnant?" He exclaims. "Shhhhh." I say. "What the fuck Laya. I never thought you would do something like that. You smart as fuck and you just threw it away." He says. "Well,ain't no need in crying now. It's done it happened it's over,there's is nothing I can do about it, so why be upset?" I say. "Because your life is literally going to go down the drain. Who the hell you staying with?" He says. "My dumbass baby daddy, but he kicking me out as soon as I have the baby,he said his mom can't find out,or she'll kill him." I say. He had a surprised look on his face." You so nonchalant with it too." He says. "Like I said its nothing I can do about it,the past is in the past I'm having this baby,I'm not aborting it neither." I say. "So what you gone do,live in the streets? When you have it I'ma be away at college." He says. "Okay well the best you can do is,get me a job and teach me how to drive." I say. He takes a deep breath." I can't teach you how to drive and that's it." He says. I smile. "We start tomorrow." I say. "Why not today?" He asks. "Because I'm going to the mall to get some stuff for my child." I say." How do you know if it's a boy or a girl." He says. "Not clothes you idiot,diapers and stuff like that." I say. He shakes his head. "Alright I gotta go." I say. "See ya." He says walking off to his car. Well that was fun.

"Marco darling can you take me to the mall." I say getting in the car. "Why? And what took you so long,I was just Finna call you." He says. "I was talking to my brother and I need to buy stuff for the baby. Like diapers and blankets and stuff." I say. "Alright I guess." He says pulling off. I actually don't see this being a bad pregnancy.

So I'm walking in JcPenny's looking for suitcases. Next I'ma go to babies are us. But now,I'm just looking for a bag to put my shit in.

I found a black one so I grabbed two and I'm at the cash register paying for them. "156.07." She says. I give her the money. I take the bags then walk out. I put the bags in the back seat. "Can you take me to babies r us. Please?" I ask getting in the car. "Man,I ain't yo chauffeur." He says with a attitude."Well you can get me pregnant,so you can take me where I need to go!" I yell. "You lucky I didn't put you on child support nigga but I'ma be nice." I go off. See this another problem. I don't even have my medicine. "Don't go off on me." He says driving in the babies r us parking lot. "Well you should have never got an attitude over sow thing dumb. I asked politely." I say trying to sound calm. "Aight man,just hurry up." He says. "Don't rush me."I say getting out the car.

I got a basket so I'm just getting diapers,blankets,wipes shit like that. I'm going to use that useless ass 150$ that mama gave me to buy a stroller. That's probably gone be 100. Ima use the other 50 for formulas and shit.

I can't believe I'm in this predicament right now. But now I'll do what ever for my baby. I love it so much. I don't care what anybody says I'm going to be there for it like any normal mother would. I just have to figure out where to after I have her.

I finished getting all the stuff I was going to get now I'm on my way to the register. I got 3 60 packs of diapers. A couple packs of wipes,3 minor blankets,and that's it. I'll get a stroller when I give birth.

I put the stuff in the car and We're on our way home now. "So why did you get all this stuff now?" He asks. "Because I wanted to get it in head of time so that would be one less thing that I have to do. I just going to keep all that stuff in that closet in the room I sleep in." I tell him. "Oh,well I guess." He says. "Yep smart I know." I say. "Aye you should stop so we can get something to eat." I say. I'm really hungry. "Alright,that's the first stop you suggest making that I completely agree with." He says.

He pulls up to McDonalds. "You wanna go in or go through the drive through?" He asks. "Drive through duh." I say. "Ok then." He says going to the drive through. "What you want?" He asks me. I tell him what I want. He orders his and my food. "I'll pay." He says. "Thanks." I say. He nods his head. Good because I'm starving.

I'm about to go to sleep. We got home and ate and everything. I got comfortable now I'm tired as fuck. And my ass is bout to go to sleep. Being pregnant is hard work,I don't see how people do it 6 and 7 times,and this is only the beginning.