Hush Hush-Joshaya

Part 18

Contains swearing and alcohol:

Maya walked out onto the cool street.The air rushed theough her body as she hit the outside world.Maya knew exactly where she was going to go.Same routing she went through every single day.Flunk her way through school ignoring all of the weird stares,go home and do nothing and then exit the house and drink her sorrows away.Every single night.She walked across the street from the bar she was just in and sat on the bench waiting for a person to arrive.The person was Maya's supplier of cigarettes.One per day.She woild enjoy this time the most.Sat out in her own little wonderland,in silence,but not alone.She met the person on her first night as a changed person back in New York.She had been drinking for a week by that point and she had been kicked out of one of the bars for causing a fight and being underage.The women sat with her on the same bench and just let Maya spill her heart out.She was like an older version fo Maya.Beautiful,bright young girl gone wrong.What a messed up world.It soon became a ritual for the two of them to sit on the bench at the same time every night and just simply smoke a cigarette in silence.Simple.
"I wanna be fixed.I don't wanna end up being a messed up alcoholic all my life.I want my Josh back."
Maya usually cried like this to the women.Something was different this time though.Her eyes told a story for once.A story of hope and change.
"I wanna sing again."
Maya was slowly breaking again.You could see the pieces of her falling apart and disappearing into thin air.
"I don't know what happened to me.I shouldn't have gone to that party.I should've followed Riley and Smackle home after my concert instead of following the guy I met there.I just wanted to be a teenager and party.......I just wanted to be free.....not....bot tied up................It just felt so good.The feeling.....everything........now it doesn't.........i messed up big time........its been 4 months since I was last sober.......four months today.......and guess what............tonight would have been the one year annuversary Josh and I went on our first date.........I haven't seen him in 3 fucking months........I haven't spoken to the rest of them in 2.........I haven't even spoken to my own mother since I got back from tour.She is just the person who tries to make me better but fails."
Maya stared up at the woman who stared down back at her with a small amount of tears in her eyes.
"Let us have one more night of thoughts together on this bench and then we will get you all fixed up.How about you tell me your whole story again darling?.........Speak how you feel."
Maya shut her eyes and blew out the smoke of the cigarette,hopefully her last cigarette and drank a sip from her beer bottle,hopefully her last beer too.

Then she began.Began her story of how she got into the stupid mess she was in now.

The next few chapters will be a bit shorter but they will be short snippits from the last 5 months.Maya and Josh's breakup.The first party.Riley abandoning Maya.There will probably be alcohol involved and swearing so please be prepared.Also tell me what you think of the way this story is going pleaseeeeeeee
Megan