The Game Without Rules

Chapter Twenty-One

Hint Hint ^^^ in the Media

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"Ouch! My head." I groan in between kisses with Alex.

The door to the closes behind and Alex accidentally pushes a little to hard against the door in as kiss.

"Sorry. I'm just so......eager to take off every inch of your clothing right now." He trails kisses down my neck that leave blaze of heat in its lingering trail causing me to moan.

I feel myself being pulled from the door and I'm assuming it's by Alex of course.

It's not long before I feel positions being switched before feeling my back flattened against the bed mattress.

He trails light kisses down my neckline until he reaches my chest before lightly grazing his teeth along my skin causing me to shiver. He seems to like my reaction because he soon decides to take it up a notch. His hands soon find their way under my shirt before tugging it upward.

"Wa-wait. Alex wait." I'm gasping for air.

"Huh?" His head lifts and his eyebrows scrunch together inquisitively.

I don't respond. I can't respond.

My throat won't voice the words as I look up at him worriedly.

He notices my worried expression and lifts body up slightly giving me more room.

And that's when I notice something poking against my lower abdomen. Alex's eyes widen and his face flushes as I hear mutter 'fuck' under his breathe. But his voice is not in embarrassment just complete shock.

"What's wrong?" I prop myself up on my elbows as he stands from the bed giving me a perfect view of his problem.

Holy shit.

"Nothing's wrong it's just-I haven't-I ...." Now his face is starting to show embarrassment but slightly mixed with a little anger. "Ever since I left that night after dinner with your family I haven't been able to get......"

"Girls?" I'm sitting up fully now and my hands rest in my lap fiddling with one another.

"No, getting girls wasn't the problem, it was more of the fact that I couldn't get a boner. At least not without thinking about you. I didn't realize until two weeks ago when you kissed me and I was finally....."

Laughter. I burst into a fit of laughter. I can't help myself, the fact that Alex Dalloway couldn't get a boner because of me.

"So you've had a limp di-"

"Don't." He voices warningly I steps towards the bed, towards me. "Back to you, why did you want me to stop?"

I stop laughing and my face turns uncontrollably into a frown.

"Because I'm a-," He nods his head prompting me to continue but I'm a fraud of how he'll react. Unlike every girl that he's been with I'm the virgin. I'm the inexperienced girl that he's stuck with. Taking a deep breathe I continue. "A virgin."

His expression is blank and I'm not sure if that's good or bad.

Embarrassed I stand from the bed to go when I feel him pushing me back down. My eyes are cloudy with the tears I'm trying to hold back and for the first time I've never felt so vulnerable.

"Don't." That's all he says. Nothing else.

My back is now against the mattress, how it was before we stopped making out.

Don't

Don't what?

"Don't leave." I know I didn't say it out loud but my expression probably gave my thoughts away. "I'm glad, I'll get to be your first and hopefully last. I'm glad that your not the other girls that I've been with, that your waiting for the perfect time because your perfect. I'm just surprised that you the girl guys have fantasies about has never actually made a guys fantasy come to life."