Everywhere You Go (Lawson Fanfic) - On Hold

Chapter Eight - Wedding Plans, Accusations & Revelations

(Erin's Point of View)

I turned around in the dress I was trying on and smiled at Joanne. She grinned at me before standing up and making her way over to me.

   "You look gorgeous Erin!" she said and walked around me to see the back of the dress as well. "Is this THE dress?" she asked coming back round to face me. I nodded and spun around in it. With the wedding getting closer and closer I was in full planning mode. So much had already been done like the venue for both the ceremony and the reception, the food, invites, music, Ryan had gotten his suit along with the three other  boys, our rings. Today was all about me getting my dress and helping Joanne look for a bridesmaid dress. I'd asked her to be my maid of honour the day after Ryan had proposed and obviously she said yes.

   "Yes its THE dress." I said lifting the skirt up slightly to look at the heels I had chosen out to go with the dress. I honestly never expected to be getting married and so soon after our engagement. We'd gotten engaged in September then when we got home from Joel and Joanne's wedding we agreed we couldn't wait any longer so had decided to get married in November. "I won't lie but I've had my eye on this since Ryan proposed. I only tried on one or two other dresses but I just knew this was the one for me." I explained and twirled around again.

   "Erin stop spinning I'm getting dizzy just watching you!" she said laughing and sat back down with a sigh.

   "Baby kicking?" I asked and she nodded putting a hand on her stomach. The poor girl had been getting attacked by the baby since we left.

   "You'll be glad when you finally have it so you don't get battered from the inside." I said laughing. I made my way over to her and sat down next to her.

   "Of course! I mean I'll probably miss being pregnant but just having my little boy in my arms will be so much better." she smiled and winced as she clearly got another kick. "Want to feel him kick?" she asked noticing me watch her.

   "Sure." I smiled. Since she'd told me he had started kicking I hadn't felt it yet and was kind of curious. She took my hand and put it just under her bump where obviously he was kicking. My hand was sat there for a minute before I felt it and laughed. "Wow Joanne. I still can't believe you're going to be a mum." I said pulling my hand away and standing up.

   "Neither can I." she mumbled and pushed herself up and we headed into the changing room. She helped me undo the back of my dress and then she walked out so I could take it off and get changed back into my clothes.

   "I can't wait until Ryan and I start thinking about having kids." I said and smiled to myself at the thought of Ryan being a daddy. He'd be the perfect dad to be honest. I carefully hung the dress up and stepped out of the changing room and let the woman who had been assisting us go in and sort the dress out for me to take away.

   "You'd both be great parents." Joanne said with a smile and handed me my bag. We headed out to the front so I could pay for the dress, shoes and accessories.

   "Thanks. I just want to get the wedding done with first I don't think we'll be thinking about kids any time soon to be honest. We'll probably just enjoy us being married for a year or something before that." I said trailing off as I punched in my PIN number. I smiled when finally I had paid and we were leaving the store to head back to my car and put everything in before going to get Joanne a bridesmaid dress that would look amazing and fit her considering she would be seven months pregnant by the wedding.

I shut the door and smiled before walking into the living room where Ryan was stood with his arms crossed over his chest and an emotionless face. 

   "What's wrong with you?" I asked sitting down on the sofa. He cleared his throat before speaking.

   "What was that?" he asked, no tone to his voice whatsoever. I scoffed and shook my head.

   "That was me hugging my best friend Andy goodbye." I said. When I'd come home from shopping with Joanne, Andy had popped round to see me.

   "Looked like something more to me." Ryan said and uncrossed his arms. I stood up and glared at him.

   "What are you suggesting Ryan?" I asked, crossing my own arms now. He just looked at me. "Well?"

   "That something's going on between you and Andy." he said, his voice clipped. I just laughed and shook my head.

   "Are you insane?!" I shouted. "Andy is my best friend apart from Joanne. There's no way there is something going on between us. What is this about? Because he was round here when you came home?" I asked.

   "Yes. You looked pretty cosy when I walked in and then just there when he left! Even more cosy looking with that hug." he said, his voice raising slightly.

   "Okay when you came home we were sat a good bit apart from each other talking. TALKING RYAN. Not as if we were sitting making out for you to walk in and see." I shouted.

   "You looked pretty close to me." he barked. I groaned at him.

   "I was at one end of the couch and he was at the complete opposite end! We were just talking, about the wedding, the band, about Joel and Joanne's baby. We were just talking about normal stuff!" I said close to screaming now. "And as for just there when he left? I hugged him goodbye so what? I hugged Joanne goodbye earlier, you going to accuse me of something going on between us?" I asked sarcastically.

   "Look all I'm saying is it looked that way to me." he said and pushed past me going into the kitchen. I grabbed his wrist and stopped him as he reached the doorway.

   "This ring on my finger Ryan, it means something. It means I love you and I'm going to be YOUR wife. Not Andy's, not anybody else's but yours okay? I love you and only you so get over this jealousy you seem to suddenly have." I said and stormed off up to our bedroom, slamming the door behind me.

I tapped my foot impatiently against the cold bathroom floor as I waited for my phone to ring. After talking to Joanne today about us having kids in the future it had made me realise something I should have noticed sooner. I was late. I'd bought a test on my way home after dropping Joanne off and with Ryan sat downstairs watching TV after our argument I figured it was the perfect time to take it. I gasped slightly as my phone started ringing telling me the three minutes were up. I stood up and walked over to the sink where I'd sat the test after I'd done it. I picked it up and looked at the small screen. Pregnant. Looks like there would be another Lawson baby. I gripped the test in my hand and headed out onto the landing. With every step I took, the test felt heavier and heavier in my hand. I honestly didn't know how Ryan was going to react. I mean would he be happy or pissed? Or even try and accuse me of cheating and that the baby was Andy's. I pushed open the living room door when I reached it and walked in. Ryan stood up and instantly walked over to me.

   "Erin I am so sorry! I shouldn't have been so stupid and jealous. I don't know what came over me. I know you would never cheat on me." he said and pulled me into a hug. I leant my head against his shoulder and sighed before pulling away.

   "It's okay. At least you apologised. I'd never do anything like that because I love you too much. Now I really need to talk to you about something." I said and led him over to the sofa and sat him down. I sat down next to him and looked down at my lap where I was hiding the pregnancy test then back up at Ryan who's face was just filled with worry.

   "Erin what's wrong?" he asked. I didn't say anything but just handed him the test. He looked down at it then up at me and opened his mouth before closing it again. He opened it again and finally spoke. "Uh, is this what I think it is?" he asked. I nodded and croaked out a short response.

   "Yeah." I mumbled.

   "And are you showing me this because you are? I mean you wouldn't show me it unless you were so are you?" he said as he started to babble. I looked up at him and gave him a small smile.

   "Looks like we're having a baby Fletch." I whispered.