Isa pala siyang malaking tanga e!
Sukat sabihin niyang mahal niya ako at hindi niya ako iiwan, then now?
Parang isang kisapmata lang nawala na lahat ng sinabi niya? Tell me I'm dreaming aren't I?
I'm dreaming that I did not really met him. That he's not real and he doesn't exist!?
Masakit. Sobra. Para akong tinira sa puso ng walang kaalam alam.
Tinabig ko ang mga kamay niya sa balikat ko. Even if I don't want to burst out in front of him. I did. Hindi ko na napigilan e.
I even slapped him. Harder!
"So ganun nalang yun?" I asked him bitterly. "Well then if that's what you want. I guess wala na akong magagawa. Just don't let me see your face again. Or else I promise, baka mapatay kita"
My hands are trembling, whole body is shaking. And I'm so angry that I cannot even look away at him.
My sharp glare lingers into every part of his body by now. I want to stab him with anything I've got, but I know I have to stay into my senses or else I might go and do something stupid.
"Calli" he again called me and tried to touch me.
"Stay away if you still love your life" I said while still looking sharply at him.
But he's persistent.
I slapped his hand when it reached me. "I said don't come near me!" I shouted. "Ayaw na kitang makita. Go away and leave me for good!"
"Calli please. Don't make me leave" he again beg.
I smirked bitterly at him. "How can you still say those words after you had done all that?"
"Calli I'm coming back. So please stay" his voice were cracking. They sounded so helpless but I don't care.
Hinding hindi na ako maniniwala sakanya.
"Don't be. Coz' I have no plans of staying with you again. So please just go away"
His eyes were saying he have more words to say. But I must cut him before everything gets more out of hand.
"Don't try to get me back. Because I have no plans on being with you again. Eversince you left without a word, my feelings for you had gone too. So just go and forget all your pity about me. I'm sorry but..." I faced him with all I've got. "I don't have enough love for you anymore"
And with all the strength that I've got. I stepped back away from him and went inside my room.
Crying was all that I could do. Ang sakit! Ang sakit sakit!
Para akong sinasaksak ng paulit ulit.
Buong gabi lang magdamag lang akong iyak ng iyak. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Yung pakiramdam ko para akong mamamatay.
The following day I still didn't went to the office to work. Nagstay lang ako sa apartment ko maghapon. I just texted Mel na nagkasakit ako kaya matatagalan ako bago makapasok.
When I had recovered, slight. I decided to work the following day. Kailangan ko ng pagkaka abalahan para makalimutan ko yung mga nangyari samin ni Danny nung isang araw.
But then, I was just in the middle of focusing on my work when I suddenly face my officemates na halatang kanina pa nakatitig sakin. Their faces are expectant.
I just raised an eyebrow at them. Si Mel lang ang tumikhim at lakas na loob na kausapin ako.
She sitted down beside me. "Are you okay?" Was the very first question she asked. Her face was really worried.
"Yes" agad kong sagot. I don't want them to think any other things. Gusto kong bumalik sa dati ang lahat. Besides, single na ulit ako. Wala na akong iisiping iba kundi ang sarili ko.
She signed. "Alam ko hindi ka okay, I can tell by just looking at your face" she confessed.
Natahimik lang ako. Tatlong araw na simula nung nagkausap kami ni Danny. And just like before hindi ko pa ulit siya nakikita simula nung araw na yun.
Maybe he really gone away for good. Well good for him.
Mel spoke again and that made me shut what I was doing.
"Danny resigned" she simply stated. But that statement has just too meaning for me to comprehend.
Hindi na niya ako tinanong pa at umalis na siya sa tabi ko.
I was left here at the office alone during the lunch and snack break. Hindi ko nanaman napigilan ang umiyak.
Bakit kasi hindi pa maubos ubos yung luha ko sa tagal ko nang iyak ng iyak.
Sira ulo talaga siya! Napaka sinungaling niya.
'Ako. Hinding hindi kita iiwan. Kahit ikamatay ko pa'
That sentence he said to me after he found out about Syne's death replayed in my head like it was a reminder.
Reminder my ass! Promises are meant to be broken.
Yes. I do believe that now.
Una si Papa, tapos si Syne, ngayon si Danny. Sino pa ang susunod!?
