Saturday morning. Since I don't have work today I just decided to walk down the street to ease the heavy feeling surrounding me.
Pagod na ko sa kakaiyak. Kung ayaw na niya sakin sana man lang magsabi siya, hindi yung basta nalang siyang mawawala.
While I was silently roaming around. I decided to sit next to a court where some guys were playing basketball.
"Buti pa sila masaya" I whispered. Then I glanced the piece of paper I'm holding since the day he was gone.
Like the old days, I used to write poems whenever I feel lonely. But I guess poetry doesn't really help me much in my problem. It just helps me to lessen the sadness but not the longing feeling.
I was planning on burning this paper as I was planning on burning my feelings for him also. Nakakapagod din palang maging tanga.
I thought it was a happy ending for us. But I didn't notice it was just our once upon a time.
At about quarter to 11 I headed back to my apartment, and I didn't notice there's someone in front of it.
I was shocked to see him in front of my door once more.
He looks at me like he was about to helpless beg something from me.
With enough courage, I walked near him.
"Glad to see you alive" I said to him emotionlessly.
He did not answered back. Instead he immediately held my wrist as he pulled me closer and hugged me tighter than I remember.
With just one gesture, all my negative hopes and feelings faded away. It's possible for him to just take away all my heartaches with just one hug.
Now he began to be teary.
Lagi ko nalang siyang nakikitang umiiyak.
"Calli" he whispered my name. Oh how much I missed being called by him.
"I love you" he muttered between his hurtful sobs.
Why did he pronounced those words like he's not going to say them again? Is he...
"And I'm sorry"he finally let go of me and rest his hands on my shoulders. He tried to pushed away his tears and looked at me with such hurtful look.
"I'm breaking up with you"
