So now what plans do I still have in life?
Another week had passed. I'm still nowhere in myself. Para akong naliligaw ng landas. Maliban sa mukha na akong basurera sa daan. Mukha pa akong may sayad kapag kinakausap.
At work they still kept quiet about the whole thing that happened between me and Danny.
Walang nagbabanggit ng kahit anong topic tungkol samin. They just shrugged all their concerns about us.
And in the whole week. I'm still contemplating about what he said to me before he bid goodbye.
Handa ba akong maghintay? Will I be willing to?
Bakit pa ba niya kailangan sabihin yun, where he can just say to me what was really the problem between us at kung bakit pa niya kailangan samahan si Eu?
Mas importante ba siya sakin?! Or he thinks that I wouldn't understand kaya hindi niya masabi sabi.
Either of the both reasons. Nasasaktan pa din ako.
Para akong lumulutang sa kung saan. Wala ako lagi sa sarili.
Para akong pinaglalaruan na hindi ko maintindihan.
Then the other day came. Neo unexpectedly visited me in my apartment. Ngayon ko mas na appreciate yung features niya na kahawig ni Danny.
Pagbukas ko palang ng pinto, tumambad na agad ang nakangiti niyang mukha sakin.
"Hi" he greeted.
"Anong ginagawa mo dito?" I asked in confusion.
"Hindi mo man lang ba muna ako papapasukin?" He asked with a hint of grin in his face.
Oh well. I just rolled my eyes at him atsaka ko na siya pinatuloy.
Nang makaupo siya sa couch. I asked him direct to the point.
"What do you really need?"
He just chuckled and patted the couch beside him, wanting me to sit beside him. So I did.
"Ano na nga?" I asked as soon as I sited.
"Alam mo ikaw hindi ko talaga alam kung anong nagustuhan ng kapatid ko sayo. Sungit mo e" natatawang sabi niya.
And I know for a fact na nilalait ako ng isang to.
Nagtaas lang ulit ako ng kilay sakanya dahil obviously wala ako sa mood makipag biruan.
"Okay okay. Magsasalita na ako bago mo pa ako maisipang sipain palabas ng apartment mo" again he said chuckling.
"I know you're curious where the h*ck did my twin gone off to. And you're also wondering bakit sila magkasama ni Eu?"
He said then stop explaining after. Pabitin sakalin ko kaya to!?
"And?" I trailed.
"I know were they are" he said looking at me seriously. His eyes were full of determination in it. I just wonder why.
We still chatted about the whole thing until evening. Medyo late na nga siyang nakauwi dahil dito ko na siya pinakain ng dinner.
He was explaining to me that Eu needs someone to take care of her. He didn't elaborate the reasons though dahil magandang sakanila ko nalang malaman.
Neo also told me that they were actually living together. Which made me obviously devastated.
I am hurting here why they're both happy with each others company!? Tanga nalang pala talaga akong masasabi.
" So ano? Will you go to see them?" He asked me. "I already fed you up with the details. Nasa sayo nalang kung pupuntahan mo sila o hindi" his voice was quite expectant.
Ano bang gusto nitong si Neo bakit niya to ginagawa?
"What if I did not go? Its obvious that your twin just wants me to be his rebound after he was hurt again by Eu" I commented. Ngayon ko nararamdaman na napapagod na ako sa set up namin. Its been a month since the last time we were okay.
"Hmm. I cannot give my comment on that. Si Danny lang makakapagsabi niyan. So I suggest better get yourself up and face your fear" he said with a smile then turned away to the door. "I wish you good luck" he said then walked his way out.
Sighing I thought, will he really be deserving for all of this?
