The Sweetest Feeling

Chapter Nine

I've just come out of a meeting with Jeff. They are opening a new branch at the Angel and he is moving there to be branch manager. He wants me to go with him, of course I said yes; it's closer to home and means I can walk to work. Obviously I will miss everyone I work with now, except Jessie. She gets on my nerves, she only talks to me about Nathan and I'm too polite to tell her to piss off. She clearly likes him whenever he is around she talks louder and sticks out her chest. I've seen her a few times sit next to him in the staff room- close enough to rub up against him- flicking her hair and batting her eyelashes. It makes me sick. I'm seeing him later he is coming round for dinner. He met my Nan back in September and has been joining us for a traditional Irish evening every Monday since. My nan makes good old Irish fare, we stick on our favourite Irish songs and then after dinner we drink Baileys while she tells us stories from when she was younger. Sounds a bit cliche but we love it. He usually stays over too, Nan doesn't mind, she knows he is just my friend.

I'm still with Otis, I don't know why to tell you the truth, we hardly see each other, I see him once a week for a messy night out followed by boring sex and that's about it. I know relationships don't stay fresh and exciting. We are comfortable, so we don't bother to impress each other anymore. It's only been seven months, doesn't seem that long I know but it feels like forever to me. I'm with him for two reasons, firstly I have an excuse to ignore what's obviously building between me and Nathan and well secondly he gives me coke for nothing. That shit is expensive, actually he has given me a fair bit that should last me a while so if we did break up I would be fine, I mean it's not like I have a problem I can stop whenever I want.

It's December, the weather is horrendous and there's only a week till christmas. People are rushing around like mad, trying to find the perfect present for their loved ones and stocking their cupboards with food. Christmas is a difficult time for me, I'm flooded with unhappy memories, Nan always tries to make it special so I put on a fake smile and join in the festivities but when I'm alone in my room, I remember my dark troubled past and all the times it has come back to haunt me. I've decided I don't want to go to my Uncles this Christmas I would much rather stay home, I'm going to insist that Nan still goes, she loves it down there so I wouldn't want her to miss out. I am going to have to work late on Christmas Eve anyway so I won't be able to catch the train.

At dinner, that night I tell them both about moving to the new branch in January. "That's good, I don't like you travelling to Camden so early in the morning or coming home from there late at night" my Nan says. "I'm sure going to miss seeing your face every day" Nathan says when we are tidying up. "Listen, Mr Hart you are not getting rid of me that easy. You're my best friend, we will still see each other but I will miss working with you too" I say resting my head on his chest. I will never understand why it feels so good to be held by him. "Thanks for coming to my gig last week".
"I would never miss an opportunity to hear you sing; I'm your biggest fan" he smiles at me. "Let's go sit down I have some news for you and Nan" I say taking three glasses into the living room.

After my gig last week, this guy Johnny asked for my contact info, he said he was a DJ and had been looking for someone to sing vocals on his new track. It's meant to be the next big dance hit, I checked him out on YouTube he is quite famous. He phoned today to confirm and give me all the details. Exciting!! My Nan starts to scream and jumps to her feet "Emily, I knew you could do it" she says pulling me up and twirling me around. She goes to phone my Uncle and Mavis who lives next door. Nathan scoops me up in his strong arms. "I'm so happy for you. I told you you're voice, is incredible" he says. Nan comes back and says she is popping next door to Mavis- which means she will be there till tomorrow- Nathan and I pull out a bottle of brandy to celebrate. Two large brandies later I can feel it begin to spread through my body, making me feel toasty and warm. I stand up, holding out my hand for Nathan to take, pulling him up from his seat, I lead him upstairs to my bedroom, hand him my iPod and tell him to pick some music. Unzipping my skirt I let it fall to the floor just as 'Nobody' by Keith Sweat oozes from the speakers. I turn to face him and recognise the look in his eyes. Slowly I unbutton my shirt till I am standing in just my underwear. He walks towards me, takes my hands and places his forehead against mine just as the chorus hits. Feeling the music I can't help but softly sing.

I move my hands down his bare chest as he slowly runs his hands up my thighs to my hips. He looks deep in my eyes, searching my face for reassurance that this is what I want. I know we shouldn't but this thing between us is too hard to ignore. "Do you feel it?" He asks slightly breathless. "With every inch of my body" I reply. He kisses me. It's gentle but full of meaning, this is what kissing is meant to be I undo the string on his bottoms and tug them down. He steps out of them and pulls me to him, one hand in my hair, the other grabbing my behind. "Are you sure about this?" I nod my head.
He lifts me into his arms and I wrap my legs around him, in one swift move he walks me to the bed, lays me down and starts to kiss me.
Moving to my neck, he traces soft kisses down towards my chest. My bra has a front clasp, unhooking it I can feel my nipples stand to attention. He circles one of my nipples with his tongue, pulling at it gently with his teeth before moving to the other one, teasing me, he continues down my belly making me ache for him. Hooking his thumbs inside my knickers, he tugs them down slowly, lifting my knees then discarding them on the floor. "I want to kiss you all over, you're so beautiful" he says. I don't think I can take anymore. I want him right now. I need him. Reaching for the drawer on my dresser I pull out a condom. He stands up to remove his boxers. He kneels back down as I tear open the packet and gently roll the condom over his erection. He hasn't taken his eyes off me. I have never felt so confident or sexy. He leans down and kisses me while easing himself inside me, we both let out a soft moan. We start off slow, enjoying the feel of each other and it's really sweet but it soon becomes more passionate, heated and intense. I can feel my orgasm building, thrust after thrust hitting that perfect spot, I can't hold it any longer, I explode around him. He slows down so I can savour every second. He gives me that perfect smile, reaching up I kiss him before flipping him onto his back. Lowering  myself over him, he grabs my breasts. Up and down I begin to bounce, his hands move down my body, one stays on my hip the other moves lower, till his thumb finds my clitoris. He rubs and teases me while I ride him, "Nathan" I pant. He sits up so we are face to face. "Oh Emily" We move together to a perfect rhythm. I'm ready to burst. "Let it go for me, Emily" he whispers. My whole body shakes from the inside. "Oh Nathan" Hearing me say his name sends him over the edge as we come together.