The Sweetest Feeling

Chapter Fifteen

Nathan is coming round straight from work. I just finish cleaning the downstairs toilet when the bell goes; I open the door and jump into his arms, nearly knocking him over. "It's good to see you too, Charms. I like your new perfume, smells an awful lot like bleach" he says carrying me inside and closing the door. I laugh at his silliness, it's something I adore.

We sit on the couch and finally agree to order Chinese. I order from our local having a chat with Mr Ming before hanging up. "Do you realise the affect you have on people?" I look at him puzzled. "People can't help but love you! you're just so nice and sweet. Everyone you have ever worked with thinks you're great, kids adore you even the local shop owners are smitten. I see I will have to fend off many admirers" he says smiling. "I don't know what you're talking about, I'm the one who will have to deal with women throwing themselves at you" I joke. He pays for the food, even though I protest. We are stuffing our faces with Chinese food and beer in front of the T.V when I notice him looking at me. "You love food. I've noticed you're not bothered about what you eat in front of me" he says. "Why would I be? I don't have to pretend with you, Curly" I say. He looks pleased. "So come on then are you going to sing for me?" I grab my guitar from the corner and sit next to him.
"I have a couple of acoustic covers I want you to hear?" I say getting comfortable, looking up at him he is smiling and it warms my heart. I strum my guitar and sing.

'Hiding My Heart' by Adele is the first song I sing. "That's a beautiful song but you don't have to hide your heart anymore" he says. I carry on this time doing 'The Sweetest Feeling' by Jackie Wilson, he leans in when I finish and gently kisses me. "Emily Delaney, you give me the sweetest feeling" he says. His kisses are incredible. "Do you remember how much we loved that song?" We listened to it a lot back in the day, after we both admitted we liked the cover by Will Young on Pop Idol. "Yes, that's why I chose it. Now this next song is one I heard recently and it reminded me of you" I say. 'Hey Soul Sister' by Train is the last song I sing, he claps and cheers. "Wow, that could have been written about us, don't you think?"
"That's what I thought" I reply. I put my guitar back and nod to the stairs, he follows me up.
I put Mr Shuffle on the dock, pick a playlist and the Amy Winehouse cover of 'Will you still love me tomorrow' comes on. "Dance with me" he says. He holds me in his arms as we sway to the music, I didn't realise the repeat switch was on so the song just keeps playing. We dance for ages, lost in the music finally I look up and kiss him. It's soft and sweet. I feel so wanted, I feel sexy for the first time since, well since we last slept together.

He holds my face close to his and says "I am going to undress you slowly, I want you to trust me" part of me wants to pull away and say no but I need to take this step and there is nobody else I would let do this. I don't speak just look at him and nod. He unbuttons my cardigan, pushing it off and exposing the scars on my arms. I wait for the shock or disgust to show on his face but he just continues to undress me. He peels my vest up over my head and unzips my jeans, tugging them down. He unhooks my bra and pulls down my knickers leaving me completely naked; it feels scary but exhilarating at the same time my tears trickle down my face. Nathan notices them too he wipes them away and kisses my cheeks. "You are beautiful don't be ashamed of your body, it's out of this world. Believe me! Don't let these scars define you. I want to kiss you all over, I never got the chance last time" he says leading me to the bed and laying me down. He starts from the top and makes his way all over my body. I've never felt this good; he kisses me all the way up both thighs. "I want to taste you, would you like that?" I nod yes. I feel him between my legs and I cry out in ecstasy as he worships me with his tongue, he licks, sucks and teases me, blowing his hot breath on my clitoris so it tingles. Gripping the sheet, I call out his name as he makes me come; it's the most intense orgasm I've ever had. He takes off his clothes before I push him back on the bed, kissing my way down his chest and taking him in my mouth. I suck slowly at first, then using my hand I speed things up, looking at him I see he has his eyes fixed on me. "That feels fantastic, you're going to make me come. Seriously, I'm about to come" he says. I don't stop, I keep my eyes locked on his letting his fluids fill my mouth and swallow. "Emily, that was sensational" he pants. I give him a shy smile. "Don't go all shy now!" he laughs. I go to the bathroom to brush my teeth he comes in behind me, putting his arms around me and kissing my cheek. "Ok, if I have a quick shower?"
"Only if you let me get in with you" I say. After a long time in the shower, we are finally tucked up in bed. "I never thought I would get to lie next to you again. I'm so happy right now" he says cuddling up to me. I know I said I wanted to take things slow but I just can't, we know each other so well, there is no need to start over. It feels like we are picking up exactly where we left off.

The next evening Nathan comes to my gig it's lovely having him there. It's like I'm singing to just him and he doesn't stop smiling. I have one song left added last minute this morning as a surprise. "This last song is for someone special to me, I hope he likes it" I say before singing 'Will you still love me tomorrow'. On the way home I turn to him. I know this is crazy but I need to let him know how I'm feeling at this moment. "Nathan, I wanted those songs I sung tonight to make you understand how I feel about you. I wish I could just come out and say it myself but you know how messed up I am, I mean I can't even say it to my Nan" I babble. He looks at me confused before realising what I'm going on about. He takes my hand, making me face him. "I heard you loud and clear, I love you too, more than you will ever know. Actually I've loved you from the moment we met"