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|18| im sorry

<aleks...

<aleks, please answer me

<aleks.... please...

<im so sorry

<aleks

<aleks are you okay?

<where are you right now?

<are you okay?

<please i just want to know if you're okay

<aleks im so fucking sorry

<aleks

<please let me explain

<funny.. i dont even know how i can explain this...

<i never meant for this to happened

<aleks i broke up with her

<i should have done it sooner

<i know i should have fucking done it sooner

<im such a fucking idiot

<i deserve to be hated by you

<i deserve to never speak to you again

<to never hear your sweet voice

<your adorable giggle

<your heavenly laugh

<i deserve to never see you again

<to never see your contagious smile

<or how your eyes crinkle when you grin widely

<i know i deserve all of that

<i know you should do all of that

<...

<but

<i dont want any of that

<i want to hold you in my arms

<i want to kiss your forehead and tell you im sorry

<i want to cuddle on the sofa and watch movies

<i want you to lay your head on my chest as we fall asleep

<i want to go on walks and hold your hand

<i want to go to the beach and feel the sand between my toes and the sun on my back with you

<i want to wake up with you by my side

<im so sorry

<i dont know why i would ever blow my chances with someone as amazing as you

<ive never lied to you

<fuck

<aleks

<ive never lied to you about the things ive said to you

<you really are gorgeous and beautiful and amazing and everything

<i love everything about you

<when we first started talking i was just bored

<i thought since i barely felt a connection with my girlfriend

<ex girlfriend

<id just have a quick jerk off and go to bed

<but i met you

<i met aleksandr marchant

<cute, funny, witty, sarcastic, sassy aleksandr marchant

<i really didnt expect us to click as much as we did

<once i heard you were in colorado too?

<hell, it peaked my interests and i became dumb and daring

<i asked you out

<expecting to break up with my girlfriend later that day

<but i couldn't do it

<i dont know why

<im such a bitch

<im sorry

<as i felt more and more attached to you, i became less and less attached to her.

<i dont want to say this

<i cant say this

<i cant believe i did it

<i need to say it

<aleks im so sorry

<i..

<god dammit

<me and jess pretty much stayed together to be fuck buddys

<im so sorry

<i didnt do it again after i came home

<i promise

<aleks i promise

<i realized it was fucking stupid. i just told her i wasnt in the mood.

<i still didnt leave her though.

<but

<when you came over

<im so sorry

<im so so so sorry

<aleks im such an idiot

<youre not nobody aleks im so sorry

<i dont know why i would ever say something so fucking ignorant

<you're everything

<everything to me

<i hate how it took this to make me notice

<i guess its true, huh...?

<you never know what you have until it's gone...

<im so sorry

<when i saw you drive away i realized what had actually happened

<i realized the doplic mistake i had made

<i told jess we couldnt do this anymore

<she left the house

<a truck is coming to get her things tomorrow

<aleks i dont expect you to forgive me

<i wouldnt forgive me

<but i just want you to know

<though we havent even known each other for that long

<somehow ive broken your heart and you've captured mine

<when i left your house, i almost said this

<and now i regret that i didnt say it. as it could've been my only chance.

<i love you, aleksandr marchant.

<i love you and im sorry.