The Bastard's Wife (On-Going)

Chapter One: Growing Pains

Chapter One— Growing Pains

Audrey

May 14, 2015
Santorini, Greece

I watched as he torridly kissed that woman on our wedding night. Sinubukan ko siyang pigilan pero ipinagtabuyan niya lang ako. This is our first night as a married couple and here I am watching him cheating on me already. Ano naman ang magagawa ko? Alam naming pareho na ako lang ang nagmamahal. It was all for business convenience and image. This was your choice Audrey. Napapikit ako sa sakit.

"I won't cry because I know that I can make him fall for me."

June 26, 2015
Fajardo-Silva Corporations Partnership Party

It was a big slap on my face. The worst part is he wasn't even drunk when he did it. Alam ng lahat na mag-asawa kami and yet kulang na lang ay hubaran niya ang kahalikan niyang babae sa harap ng mga tao. Damdamin at kahihiyan ang nadurog sa akin. And all I can do was to smile bitterly and drag my cheating husband outside of the building.

"What the hell Riley?! Ano na naman ba, ha?! Hindi ka ba makapaghintay hanggang sa matapos ang party?!" Sigaw ko sa kanya. He didn't even look sorry for it.

"Yes, Audrey! I can't wait! She said something sexy so I kissed her. So what?!" Katwirang sagot niya then he chuckled. "Sarili mo lang ang pinapahiya mo kaya kung ako sayo, tigilan mo na yang kaartehan mo."

Then he went back inside and left me almost breaking into tears.

"I can't cry. I can't. I can still work this out."

July 26, 2015

I just got home from work and went straight to the kitchen to find something to eat when I saw clothes scattered on the floor. I am sure that those are Riley's and some woman's clothes. Sinundan ko ang mga damit and those clothes led me to his room. I can hear them groaning and moaning in pleasure. How dare him! Now all I could feel is this burning rage. Malakas kong ibinalibag pabukas ang pintuan. Gulat silang napatingin sa'kin at kaagad kong sinugod ang babaeng nakapatong kay Riley.

"Bitch! Asawa ko yang pinapatulan mo!" Hiyaw ko sabay hila sa buhok nito. Ilag at tili ang nagawa nito dahil sa nakahawak ito sa nakatapis na kumot na bumabalot sa kanyang katawan. Naramdaman ko naman ang pag-higit sa akin ni Riley sa bewang at pilit akong nilalayo sa babae niya na walang ginawa kundi ang sumigaw.

"Audrey! Bitawan mo siya! Ano ba?!" Hiyaw nito sa'kin at pilit pa rin sa pag-awat. Sa sobrang galit ko ay malakas ko itong itinulak sa sahig at tsaka ito dinuro.

"Walang hiya ka! Lumayas ka sa pamamahay ko! Layas!" Agad naman itong tumalima at humihikbing lumabas ng kwarto. Nang makalabas ito ay agad kong hinarap si Riley. Kitang- kita ko ang galit sa mga mata niya pero pasensyahan na lang dahil mas galit ako!

"Riley naman! Hanggang kailan, ha?! I am trying here to work this out! To work us out! Pero anong ginagawa mo? I can't do this kung ako lang mag-isa! I need you too to try! Just fucking try for once! Fucking try!" Naluluhang sigaw ko sa kanya. Pero laking gulat ko nang hawakan niya ang magkabilang braso ko.

"I don't want this! I never wanted this! I don't want to be tied up with you and I will never ever love you! So get fucking over it! Get over it!"

September 14, 2015

Nakangiti akong pumasok sa loob ng bahay dahil may dinner kami ngayon ni Riley. Nakakatuwa ng ang isipin dahil halos dalawang linggo na kaming maayos ni Riley. Now our relationship is working out. And today is our fourth month as a married couple. Ang sabi niya ay maghahanda raw siya so I went straight at the back garden of our house. But when I got there, I saw a woman sitting in front of a romantic candle light dinner. Just right there and then, I realized this wasn't for me.

I can't believe that he would do this. He knows how much I want to work us out. How much I love him. This is a real low blow. He just crushed the pieces left in me.

I turned around and saw him with a bottle of wine in his hand. Ngayon hindi ko na nakayanan. I let my tears run down in my face. I thought I had it now, I guess not. All I could see from him is his confusion. Ang galling niyang magpanggap! He had me fooled for two goddamn weeks!

"You bastard son of a bitch! How could you do this, huh? Just to fucking spite me?! Well guess what? You already did many times and every time you're doing it, it's breaking me little by little and there's none left! I hope you're damn happy now."

How can I be so stupid to endure all of this? I walked pass him and ran to the stairs. Parang pilit na pinipiga ang puso ko sa sakit tuwing ginagawa niya sa akin ito. Paulit-ulit na lang. I suddenly felt a grab in my arm and saw him. And boy, he's angry? Wala siyang dahilan para magalit!

"You kept assuming things and you didn't even let me explain first! Pinagbigayan na kita na subukan natin 'to dahil sawa na akong makipagtalo sayo! You just saw a woman sitting there and you assume that there's something happened again!" Galit na hiyaw niya sa'kin. Napatawa na lang ako ng mapait sa mga sinabi niya.

"I've been assuming things so now why do you care?! You never cared, Riley! And please do you think that I'm that dumb to not think that there's nothing happened here? What are you, a saint?! No, because you're a bastard man-whore!" Sigaw ko. But then he suddenly pushed me and I never saw that coming.

I closed my eyes tight and I could hear him screaming my name. All I could feel is pain. Inside and out. Just pure plain pain. Growing pains.

September 16, 2015
Makati Medical Center

Pain. Searing pain.

That's all I could feel. I could feel my head aching and pulsating. Dahan-dahan kong iminulat ang mga mata ko. I look around. Plain white walls, a beeping EKG beside me and my father standing right in front of me.

"What happened, dad?" Tanong ko sa kanya. He sighs and crosses his arms.

"You tell me. What the hell happened, Audrey?!" Muli akong napapikit ng madiin. Yeah, he's not the biggest fan of me. Muli akong dumilat at kitang- kita ko ang inis sa mukha ng ama ko. "The doctor told me that you were rushed here by your husband, bloody and unconscious and Riley wouldn't talk. And now your damn husband is missing. So what happened?!"

A bastard husband and an asshole of a father.

I looked at him blankly. What a fucking life.

"Clearly, I chose the wrong guy. And I fell."

Ivy.
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