Never Let Me Go (Liam Payne)

Chapter 16 ~ Off-Guard

A/N: I have a funny feeling that you will all die in this chapter. I tried really hard, so - I hope you all like this. I haven't dedicated anyone in such a long time! My heart ache's; but I'm hoping that most of you will comment after this. Seriously, I think I almost cried. This is the moment you've all been waiting for and I've even been patient too. You all need some tissues, ok?

Chapter 16 ~ Off-Guard

“Will I ever see you again?” Liam asks me as he helps me get out of the van. I had just escaped his parlour and he offered to take me home. Could I say no? Yes. But I didn’t. I could find my own way home; but when one asks you this opportunity, how can you say no? It’s either a lift or the bus, so – I chose his offering. I guess he wanted to make peace before we parted and I couldn’t argue with that.

Looking at him, I pondered my answer for a couple of seconds and I regained my balance; without his support. The midnight breeze wrapped around my shoulders, like a rope, and it gave me false hope that perhaps I might want to see Liam again. The question was: did I want to see him or did I want to see Faith? The answer did not come quick enough and I got agitated. Maybe I did need to start college and maybe Belle was right. I wasn’t intelligent.

As I was thinking of my answer, Liam kissed my cheek; catching me off-guard. His sweet and tender lips were left lingering and I didn’t even realise that he kissed me. Was I shocked about this? Yes! He stole my cheek and that wasn’t ok. ‘Stop it’ a voice says in my mind. Stop what? Stop kidding myself that maybe I want to see Liam as well as Faith? I know I need to stop; but stop what?

“Your answer?” he asks me, interrupting my train of thoughts. He straightens up and I look at him for another second. I don’t realise that I’ve been looking at him for more than two minutes and when he coughs, he grabs my attention.

Is he always this annoying? ‘You like him’ that, stupid, voice in my head says. I shake my head and I try to drag my mind to somewhere else and bury that deep into my soul. I never want to heart that again.

“Erm… You have my number right?” I ask him and I slap myself mentally.

Why am I saying these things? I don’t want to see him. Yes, I’ll probably bump into him from time-to-time; but for now, he has things to do. My life is so different from his, we would never have enough time to see each other.

I’m sure of that.

“Sure. Louis added our numbers to your phone, remember?” Liam asks me with a smile playing on his lips. And once again, those stupid butterflies are fluttering, in the pit of my stomach. They make me feel so vulnerable that I don’t even think I can stand on my own two feet.  Does anyone else get this feeling or is it just me reacting in a way I don’t want to?

“Oh, yeah,” I reply weakly and at this point Liam bends down and kisses my cheek; but he misses and pecks my lips.

For a second, I don’t care what he’s doing. I don’t care about him or what it’s going to mean at the end. I just enjoy this moment and except the fact that I might like him. Realisation soon hits me and I realise that this isn’t a peck anymore. It’s more than that. I don’t even know what I’m doing; but I find myself ‘pecking’ him back and when our lips part, I know that it isn’t a peck anymore. It’s something so much more than a peck and I grow confused; but I kiss back, holding onto him for dear life.

His body is closely pressed against mine and when I realise that I need the air to breathe, I pull away and I look into his eyes. I see something else; something that wasn’t there a few moments ago; something that changed the colour of cheeks; something that I couldn’t put my finger on. Was I changing all of a sudden? Have I changed since I met Liam? Could this mean a relationship?

“About saying goodbye,” Liam whispers as he presses our foreheads together. A smile escapes my lips and I really cannot believe what is happening. Those butterflies are fluttering like never before and I’m crying for them to stop; but they don’t. They don’t obey my orders.

They just don’t. The buggers.

Before someone spoke again, I felt Liam pull me closer to his body. It was like I wasn’t enough for him yet. It was like he wanted more of me; but why me? Why did he choose this? Why did he choose me?

“Shh,” I instruct him, pressing my index finger to his lips. He obeys and we both shut our eyes, continuing to enjoy the moment that we have.

For a moment, I can just hear our breathing and I can hear the rhythm of his heart hammering against my body. I feel the way his hands are caressing my back and I feel the way he is holding me, like I am holding him. We both kissed with the same passion. It wasn’t hungry or desperate, it was just a: sweet compassionate kiss that told me something more of what his deal was. Did he want me? I wasn’t sure; but it wouldn’t hurt to ask, right?

“What do we do now?” he asks me as we pull away.

I sigh and just smile to put him at ease that we’re both going to have to think about what this means. Even if it means hurting someone in the future, we both have to think about what’s best for us. I may not like his decision or my own. But we have different lives and  I don’t fit into his world. I’m sure of that.

I look up at him and just smile, like I was when we broke away from the kiss. I look at him like and stroke the back of his hair.

“You need to think about this Liam because I don’t fit into your world. I know I don’t. You need to think carefully about what you want and what’s best for you because in the end, one of us is going to get hurt and that’s nothing of what we can control. Everyone’s leaves in the end and I get that, that’s why I don’t bother with relationships; but there’s something about you… Liam. Something I can’t quite put my finger on yet.” I say and I smile as his eyes show that he’s been listening to me.

“I know what I want,” Liam replies but I shake my head and pull away.

“No, you don’t Liam. Don’t you see this is going all too fast, you just kissed me and caught me off-guard, that doesn’t mean you feel anything for me,” I said and something makes me wonder that he’s been hurt by what I’ve just said. But it’s true.

You can’t know if that could mean anything and I wasn’t really prepared for the kiss and I didn’t even know what it means.His mouth drops; but he lets the matter drop and he doesn’t argue. He doesn’t argue with what I’ve just said which means that he’s been listening to me and I respect that a bit too much.

Should I care about him? I’m not sure. But time can only tell.

“Until the next time,” Liam says and I nod, reluctantly pulling away from my love interest.

“See you, Liam.” I say with that smile growing bigger than ever before. It’s going to be hard not seeing Liam and Faith for a while; but I know this is for the best. We both need to this work out. We need to know if we both really want this. Kisses like that don’t come every day. Not as passionate as that anyway.

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