Never Let Me Go (Liam Payne)

Chapter 17 - Fresh Start

A/N: Hey Guys! How are you?! Well… I’m very good! Moping a little bit; but I’ll get over it. Listening to Beyonce helps you know? Anyway, I’m going to talk about my series as promised. Never Let Me Go is not the first book of the series, anymore. Think of this book as a bonus book; but not related to the series… if that makes sense?

I’ll keep writing 1D fan fictions because I love to write. I don’t get many reads; but I do it because I love to. If you don’t like it, I’m ok with that. We are all entitled to our own opinions and I have to respect that, right?

Enjoy, xxx

Chapter 17 – Fresh Start

You know that feeling you get when you’re so… confused and somehow you have this light feeling in your chest and you can’t get rid of it? You start to get butterflies in your stomach and you grow confused because you’ve never had these feelings before. Yeah, I’ve pretty much had butterflies in my stomach all week because, all the time, I’m thinking about Liam. Every time I zone out, Belle has to click her fingers in front of my face and she gets worried because apparently I look pale and she doesn’t like it.

She says I zone out a lot; but I always defend myself. I defend myself because it’s the only thing I can do to protect what happened with Liam and I. Belle doesn’t need to know and I’m sure Liam doesn’t want things spreading, he seems like that kind of person who goes ape shit when stuff like that happens.

I wouldn’t blame him.

Nevertheless, it’s been a week since I saw him and it’s been forever since I tasted his sweet, tendering lips. I get flashbacks every now and then because his face glows, like a lamp, at the back of my mind. Why does his face haunt me so? He needs to leave my mind; but he doesn’t. He’s stuck there like glue.

I keep remembering how I felt in his arms. How I snaked my –delicate- arms around his neck and I remember how his arms were placed on my waste, so… carefully,  he won’t feel like he’s about to break my bones. I keep remembering that smile –on his face-, that made my heart beat like crazy. I’m not sure what this means yet; but I need to find out soon before someone gets hurt.

 I have a funny feeling I’m about to be.

“I can’t believe you’re doing this,” Belle says as were walking down the school corridors, that morning.

I look at her and give her the biggest grin that I possibly can because I know that it freaks her out. When Belle and I started living together, she was stupid enough to tell me her weaknesses and now that I know them all, I can freak her out instantly.

And it’s true, I can’t believe it either.

 During the week, that I haven’t seen Liam, I’ve decided to start college. Liam doesn’t know this and I guess I kind of told Louis briefly; but that’s it. Why should I tell Liam? He doesn’t know me and I don’t plan on telling him my life story if he doesn’t show up. It’s a bit pathetic don’t you think? To kiss someone and then completely ignore them for a week.

That’s a load of ball shit and so is he.

 “Believe it.” I say as I turn my head to look at my best friend who has worry in her eyes.

“Miss. Smith,” one of the tutors say as I’m heading for the head teachers office.

I look at Belle and she just shrugs. I guess I know this tutor; but I’ve never really spoken to him, so – it’s a bit awkward because no-one says anything for the next minute. I really want to get going, you know?

“Mr.Rogers,” I say smiling and his eyes widen. I’ve barely started my year at Sea View high college and already, I’ve remembered someone’s name.

Wow, I’m good.

The only reason why I didn’t go back to college was because my mum had just dropped the news that they were staying in Florida whilst I was in London. It sounds pathetic; but it really did affect me. Not seeing my little sister every day hurt me so much that I couldn’t let the world see me broken. I didn’t want people asking me questions, so – I chose to hide in the dark until I felt better.

“How are you? Are you finally going to start your year?” he asks me with a big smile growing on his face.

I know I should be offended by his statement; but I’m not. He’s a nice tutor and I like him, so – I can tell him.

“I’m fine and yes. Someone really opened my eyes this week and my family are ok,” I state and something glows in eyes; but I can’t really see it. I think it’s gratitude but I’m not entirely sure. No-one can be sure in this situation and I grow confused.

“That’s excellent. I’ll see you in music class then,” he says and before I can protest, he walks away leaving Belle’s mouth hanging.

I actually had a normal conversation, with a teacher, without walking off or shouting at them. I’m definitely changing and to be honest. I quite like this change; it’s… refreshing.

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I’ve already had two lessons and they’ve been my favourite, so far. I know you think I’m still mental for starting college again; but I’m having a blast and, I can’t believe I’ve missed out on so much.

I’ve gotten to know Belle’s friends and I love them already. Although, Dan’s grown to be my favourite and I like him. I feel that I can really trust him and that’s why I talk to him. He listens to me when I have something to say and he gives me advice when I really need it. It sounds really cringy; but I really really like him. I see him as this brotherly-like-figure and I like that idea so much that I never want to let him go. He’s already with me and something makes me hold onto him.

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-          Katie,xxx