For Infinity

Part 24: Heartache

"A single misunderstanding is so poisonous, that it makes us forget the hundred lovable moments spent together, within a minute."

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A/N: Listen to the song in media box while reading. Thank you :)
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Nandini's POV:

Pain. That's what I was feeling. This unbearable pain which I couldn't get away with, no matter how much I tried. You know, when one second life seems so perfect and another second it just goes downhill? That was what happening to me. "Manik". There was a time when this name brought the brightest smile on my face. But, now all it did was agonize me. Why Manik Why?..

Few hours ago...
After reaching college, the first thing I did was run to the Fab 5 jam room as Manik had told me about their early morning practice session. I was in a very happy mood, unaware of the nightmare coming my way.

I opened the door and what I saw, broke my heart into million little pieces. There, a girl in skimpy clothes, was sitting on Manik's lap and tracing her fingers on his chest. Lust. That's what I saw. Instead of being angry on that girl the only thing that I felt was betrayal. Sure, we were not officially together. But, what we had was pure and true. At least, from my side it was.
As soon as Manik saw me, pain and remorse flashed on his face. He immediately forced that girl off his laps and jogged towards me. But, before he could reach me, I ran away from that dreadful place. I could hear his pleading screams but, I couldn't stop myself, even when I wanted to. I ran as fast as I could, tears streaming down my face. All the people looked at me. Some with curiosity and some with pity. I surely might have looked like a crazy girl. But, at that moment it was none of my concern. I don't know where I was going but, I stopped running when I ran out of breath. I looked around and that's when I realised that I was at the terrace. Our place. Where we had made a thousand beautiful memories. A smile etched on my face when I thought about it. But, when that scene flashed in my mind, all I could feel was a heartache. The strong walls around my heart, broke down finally. I was breaking. Little by little. I fell on my knees and cried my heart out. Like, I had lost someone very dear to me. Yes, I lost him. I lost Us. I lost a chance to find true love. The pain was not going away. I cursed myself for letting my guard down and allowing him in. I clutched onto the bracelet on my right hand and remembered all our unforgettable moments. This was one of them. Unforgettable.

I don't know how much long I stayed there but, it was almost evening when I left from college. I made sure to remain invisible from all the curious eyes and especially him. His mere thought tortured my wounded heart.

Thankfully, I was home alone today. Otherwise I would have had to answer so many questions and I was not ready for that. I went straight towards my room and almost threw my bag on the desk. I was emotionally and physically drained. A hot shower was very much needed, so I removed a fresh set of PJ's from my walk-in closet and entered my bathroom. I caught my reflection on the huge mirror. The happy and chirpy girl was gone. In her place, stood a girl with a broken heart. Her eyes were puffy and red and the mascara that ran down with the tears had almost dried which stained her pale face. I felt a sudden hollowness which I tried to ignore and stepped into the shower. The hot water soothed my physical pain. But, the emotional agony was far away from gone.

After crying my eyes out again in the shower I dried myself and slipped into my comfy PJ's. That's when my phone rang again. For the thousandth time. I knew who it was. I hesitantly picked up the phone and stared blankly at the screen till the ringtone had died down. I unlocked my phone and checked the notification bar. 89 missed calls and 120 WhatsApp messages from him. I knew I had to give him a chance to explain himself. But, I was too scared to know the truth. How would I gather myself if it was something I dreaded to hear? And moreover I needed some time to ponder upon it and calm myself down so, that I will be able to face him.

Am I too simple? Maybe he got bored of me? Was he playing with me? My brain screamed! It hurt. It hurt too much. But, then something hit me like a dagger. Didn't I trust him enough? What if there's a different side to the story? What if it was a misunderstanding? Will he forgive me for not trusting him? My heart argued.

That was it. I had to give him a chance no matter how much the truth hurt. I needed to do it. For me. For him. For Us. I entered a text message "Mr. Malhotra my heart was always by your side and I trusted you with it. You better give me some explainations tomorrow. I owe you and us that much. Till then please don't call or text. I need some time away." And I hit the send button and switched off my phone immediately.

All these weird thoughts were consuming my being and was giving me a headache. At that point, my bed was looking very comforting. I lied down and covered myself with the fluffy comforter. The fear of the confrontation brought shivers down my spine. I held onto the precious bracelet, feeling him around me. No matter how much I hated to accept it. It was the truth that, his presence could always calm me down. I didn't realize when darkness consumed me and I drifted into a deep slumber.

I hope tomorrow, I don't get a heartache again..
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Authors Note:
Relationships are not so simple as it seems. There will be many ups and downs in it. Time will test how strong your relations are. So, this is just a phase in MaNan's relationship. It was needed to make it realistic. So don't panic. The next chapter will show the entire revealation. I hope you don't kill me for this. But, there are no regrets :)

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Buhbye!
-Ashkins