Sadness: about half the time. The other half is mostly numbness.
Happiness: more like short elation, then deflation back into sadness/numbness. I think “elation, then deflation” a lot.
Anger: I often get really angry, especially if someone’s not being treated right. When someone’s parents are terrible and I say I want to murder them, I want to murder them. The feeling usually fades into hate within a few hours.
Guilt: All the fucking time. I feel guilty for every little mistake I make and I don’t let go of that guilt. I even feel guilty for things out of my control. I still feel guilty for giving goldfish to a dog that was allergic to cheese 10 years ago, even though the dog didn’t have a reaction. I didn’t even know that the dog was allergic until the owner told me, which was after I had given the goldfish to it.
