The first thing I did this morning was I checked my watch for the date. It's the 21st. Yesterday wasn't a nightmare. I cried a bit more. I miss Autumn so so much. I just want to --- need to die so badly. She's the one who has convinced me not to in the past. I'm so broken without her. I seriously doubt I'll be here much longer without her. All I can do to keep myself from attempting is to stay away from the kitchen and my bathroom.
