Why do I have so many depending on me?
Why didn't I push people away?
Why do I allow myself to depend on others?
Why couldn't I have stayed away?
Why do I let people get close to me?
Why do I let people care?
I can't go in peace. Others will too. I'm trapped. Without everyone else I could have died. No one in real life really cares. I wouldn't have to bear the guilt. I wouldn't have to be strong anymore. But now I can't. My death would cause too many others to die. I've trapped myself. I can't die but I want to. I've got a deep longing inside of me for death, yet I can't satisfy that desire. I don't know what to do anymore.
