Don't Know Nothing

Chapter 2 - I'm not giving up

Chapter 2

When I woke up again I saw Adam sitting next to me on a chair. He was holding my hand and I could see by the look on his face that he didn't sleep that well the last days. I looked at him and he smiled at me. It felt weird that this man sitting next to me was my boyfriend although all I knew about him was his name. I didn't even know how long we were dating or what his job was.

'Hey, how are you feeling babe?' He said to me.

'Better then yesterday! I mean everything still hurts, especially my stomach but it feels better than yesterday,' I said trying to comfort him. He looked back at me but I could still see that he was worrying.

'Have you already spoken to the doctor?' I asked to him, hoping the doctor had said to him that I couldn't remember who he was so I didn't have to explain it for myself.

He nodded and he made a sad face. Although Adam didn't really mean anything to me, I felt so sorry for him. I wanted so badly to know who he was. Not only for him so he could have me back but also so that I would know if he was really a good boyfriend. Because I was in a state that everyone could say anything to me and I would still believe it. What if Adam wasn't my boyfriend and just some freak that pretended to be my boyfriend. Someone who was chasing me since high school and now finally got the chance to be with me. Everything could be true and all of a sudden I felt so stupid and dumb.

'What are you thinking about?' Adam asked, bringing me back to reality.

'I'm just trying to remember anything. But it is so hard, and I feel so sorry for you, I really do! I mean you know who I am, you know the life we had together, you probably know more about me than I know about myself. The only thing I know are my name and age.' I said, trying not to cry and make me feel weak. Adam put his hand on my hand and he squeezed it.

'We together are going to find out who you are. I'm not going to leave you and I want you to know that I'm there for you and I won't be giving up on you!' He said to me. He smiled at me which made me feel better. I looked deeply into his eyes and I couldn't imagine him being some sort of a freak who was trying to get into a relationship with me without me wanting it.

The doctor entered the room again. She greeted me and Adam, after that she began to ask the question she asks every time she enters the room.

'So, how are you feeling today?' She asked with a smile.

'Well, better than yesterday. I still feel every single bone in my body but not as bad as yesterday I guess.' I said to her.

'That's good, a nurse will come soon to refresh your bandages around your stomach. Do you already remember anything more?' She asked then. I shook my head and she checked the infusion with medicine.

'How long do I have to stay in this hospital?' I asked the doctor.

'Well, as soon as the nurse is ready with changing your bandages we will transfer you to another room upstairs. Because you are doing great now you can leave the intensive care and go to another section. I think that within four days you can go pack your stuff and go home.' She said to me and she smiled at me.

Go home? I realized I couldn't stay in the hospital my whole life but I never thought about going home, not even when I asked the question to the doctor. I mean home, where is my home? I didn't even know in which state I was living now.

Did I live at home with Adam, or all by myself.

'Tomorrow there will also be a psychologist who will help you with your memory.' The doctor continued.

'How will a psychologist help me with my memory if we both don't know who I am?' I asked the doctor. It seemed weird to me that someone who never had my memories could help me get my memories back.

'Doctor Gilhaus is known for helping people who have lost their memories. He really helped them to bring back their life. He uses hypnosis, so the people will return to their inner self and there they kind of meet them self. It doesn't work for all the memories but a lot of people got stuff back from their childhood because of him.'

My childhood. Also something that had escaped my mind. Well I would be glad to know who I was in my early days. But to be honest the only thing I want to know now is knowing who Adam is. Because my childhood isn't really that important right now, I mean I don't live in my childhood anymore.

The doctor explained some more things about leaving the hospital and the life I would get after coming home. She also told Adam to go home after the visiting hour was over so he could get me stuff from home. Things like photographs, music and some personal belongings. He also had to get me clothes, because all I was wearing for the past few days were these awful hospital clothes. A blue kind of dress which didn't even covered my butt. Luckily I didn't really have to leave my bed so no one had to see how ugly I looked in these clothes.

The doctor left and the nurse came in to change my bandages.

'Do I have to leave?' Adam asked to me. I nodded because I didn't want him to see my wounds and I also didn't feel comfortable with him looking at me when I was half naked.

'It's okay,' Adam told me when he saw that I made an apologetic look. He squeezed my hand and told me he was going to get some coffee.

He left and the nurse removed my old bandages. I looked at my belly and saw a huge red scare walking across it. I was shocked, it was the first time I realized I really had had an accident. Of course it hit me when the doctor told me it but I didn't realize how bad it really was.

The nurse saw that I looked shocked at my wound and she comforted me that it was healing very well. Although I didn't really believed her I smiled weakly at her.

After she had changed everything and walked away Adam walked into the room again. He smiled at me and I forced myself to smile back. I still didn't really know what to think about Adam but I didn't want to ruin it for him. I mean he was trying so hard.

Adam stayed with me for a while and we talked for a bit. It wasn't really a talk were I found out anything about him but it was more a talk about the weather, which didn't really interested me but for some reason Adam was avoiding all of the questions about him which I asked him.

After we were done talking two nurses entered the room and said that they were going to move me to another room. They helped me out of the bed and placed me into a wheelchair. It was the first time within days that I was seeing anything else except my depressing room. After we went into an elevator which brought us three levels higher I was brought to a much more nicer room.

The room felt somehow much more comfortable. This room also had a TV and there weren't as many tubes and hospital devices as the intensive care. The nurses helped me into the bed again and they allowed Adam to stay for another half an hour, although the visiting hour was already ended.

'Do I need to bring any specific things for you? I mean I know that you can't remember much but I can bring you some personal things like pictures,' Adam said.

Pictures, I hadn't thought about those things. Maybe if Adam brought some photos with him I could recognize some things and maybe my memories would come back. I asked Adam to bring some photos about my childhood and also from us together. I also asked him if he could take some photos of my house so I could see how it looked like. Adam said that he could do that and he wanted to leave.

'But, do you have keys of my house? Because I don't know where my keys are, maybe in that bag where also my wallet was in.' I pointed to the bag that was standing in the corner.

'Of course I have the keys to OUR house,' Adam said and he kissed my forehead before he left. Leaving me behind with a shock.

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