Don't Know Nothing

Chapter 7 - Try my hardest not to scream

Still in shock I scrolled further through the search results. I saw some photographs of Adam and I was more shocked to see pictures of myself. I clicked on the picture.

"Adam Levine his girlfriend Kaylynn Parker. She and Adam are one year together already which is a new record for Adam." The caption said. A new record? Well that's not nice to say..

I clicked on a couple more links and I began to realize that Adam wasn't the only one who was famous. I was also being famous, I saw so many photographs of myself and I didn't know what to do. 

I sat back and closed my eyes and suddenly I remembered the conversation I heard when I was still in the hospital. The conversation Adam and the doctor had about telling me something. I think Adam wanted to tell me everything but the doctor was to scared that it would be a big shock for me. To be honest I would have been glad if Adam would tell me all of that in person. I mean reading it on the internet is different than hearing it from someone in person. 

I know Adam was just following up the advice from the doctor but I still had the feeling that he was lying to me. Then I remember that the psychiatrist had warned me not to go onto the internet and social networks. Well now I understand. 

I turned of the laptop and lay down in my bed. At first I was really tired before I turned on my laptop but now I was wide awake. I didn't know what I could do right now. I can't go down stairs because I feel like everyone has been lying to me and I'm scared that I will go and get into a fight. I also don't want anyone to know that I have found out about Adam. All my worrying was beginning to make me sick when I heard my phone ringing. 

"Adam is calling" 

Oh no.. Not now.. What did I have to say to him? I can't just tell him, I'll have to pretend that everything is ok.

'Hello, Kaylynn speaking.' I said with a cheerfully. 

'Hey Kaylynn, this is Adam. Is everything alright?' I heard Adam say. 

'Yes, I'm just a bit tired. I jus wanted to go to bed to be honest.' I said, hoping he would cut off the call.

'Oh, well than. I just wanted to know if everything was alright and wanted to know if everyone was being a bit nice to you.' Adam said. 

'Of course they are nice to me, they are my family. Well they didn't really ask me that much, at dinner it was only Sophia and my mum who were talking but it didn't bother me that much.' I said, although I knew I was lying about that. 

'Well, that's great. I'll hang up know so you can go to bed. Goodnight goodnight Kaylynn.' He said to me. I also said goodnight and we hang up. Goodnight goodnight? Why did he had to say it twice. Was that some relationship thing we used to do? 

After I put away my historical phone I lay down on my bed and started at the ceiling. I looked at my alarm clock and saw that it was half past eight. Because of all the news and things I had gone through today I suddenly felt exhausted. I didn't want to worry any longer so I just decided to get some sleep. I turned off my lamp and closed my eyes. Within five minutes I fell into a deep sleep. 

I woke up because I heard voices at the hallway. 

'Would she be already asleep?' I heard my dad ask. 

'Of course, she looked so tired when she went upstairs. So she is probably already asleep. She seemed a bit irritable tonight. I hope she is doing alright.' I heard my mom say to my dad.

Well of course I was irritable. I mean all of you were just asking me stupid questions.. I looked at my phone and saw that I had received a text message.