Don't Know Nothing

Chapter 9 - I never want it to stop

We walked inside, silently. 

Adam followed me with my bags. After I told him I knew about his music career, he hadn't said a word. He just looked me in the eyes and didn't say something. I didn't know what I had to expect, was he mad? Disappointed? Or maybe glad that he didn't need to hide anymore.

I said down of the couch and watched Adam sitting down across from me. He looked up to me.

'I'm glad you found out. Has your family told you this?' Adam asked me. I shook my head.

'No, I looked you up on the internet. I wanted to know if you had Facebook or some other kind of social media. But when I looked you up on Google, I found out there was something more then only a Facebook profile,' I said while I smiled awkwardly. 

'Right, right.. But did your family tell you anything else about me?' He asked, it sounded like he was scared. Like he wanted to hear me say no. I felt like I became angry, he wanted me to say no. But if I did, would he tell me everything my family had told me about him. I was sick and tired of all the people who were lying to me. 

'Yes, they told me about you breaking up with me,' I told him, trying to look at him in the eyes. But he tried his hardest to look away from me. I saw that he was trying to find words to say to me.But it took him a long time to respond at what I just said. 

'I know I did, Kaylynn. And it was wrong. I'm so, so sorry. I never wanted to break up with you really!' He said to me. 

'But why? Why did you break up with me? Why did you break up with me if you didn't want to, Adam?' I said to him, I was suprised about me almost sounding desperate. 

'Because of the media Kaylynn. I know it sounds weak but they were talking about us, all the time. Because I had more girlfriends before you, they thought you were just a flirt. Just someone who I would get bored of and get rid of after a couple of months. They told me you were to good for me. You were the sweet innocent girl and I was the player who was an asshole. After a while I just started to believe them. I thought you were to good for me, I thought I didn't deserve you. And that's why I broke up with you. And yes, after that I put it on Twitter. I just wanted to get those people away from you. I wanted to protect you. But after I left you, I missed you already. And then the accident happened and then I just pretended I was still yours because I wanted to be with you. Yes it was all so wrong from me but please can you forgive me Kaylynn?' He asked me. He looked at me and I could almost see tears in his eyes. He looked at me deperately. All these words he just told me, it seemed to much to me. I wanted to react seriously and tell Adam what I felt. But instead I just had to laugh. Not because of his story he just told me, but because of the expression on his face.

Because of my laughter, Adam his face became more dissapointed. I could see in his eyes that he didn't know what to do. After a couple of minutes of silence I had decided what I wanted to say to him.

'Well, I really want to make this work. You are so sweet and you are the only one who seems to care about me. When I was at home everyone was just acting like they didn't know what to do with me, so instead of asking how everything was going they just ignored me for a couple of days. The only thing they told me was about what kind of asshole you are... But to be honest I still need time, I mean I can't say I'm mad at you because I don't know how I felt before the accident. I don't know what my feelings were for you before I lost everything. What you just said was so sweet Adam and because of what you did, pretending to be my boyfriend even after you left me, just makes it clear to me that you still love me very much. I can't really imagine anyone who would do something for their ex-girlfriend. But you have to give me some time, Adam.' I said to him with full honesty. I saw Adam looking at me, trying to find the right words. But I could see that he couldn't find any. So instead I just put my arms around him and hugged Adam.

We just said there hugging each other. After a couple of minutes I looked up at Adam his face. He looked at me with a romantic look and I could feel very attractive to him. We moved our faces to each other, ready to kiss each other but then we were interrupted by the sound of the doorbell. Adam moved away his face and got up. I couldn't help it but feel dissapointed. 

I could hear him open the door and I hear someone speaking to Adam, but I couldn't really hear what they were saying. Then Adam came walking back into the room with a tall man with long blond hair walking behind him. I recognized him from some photo's I had seen from Maroon 5. I knew from the small information I had read that this must be James. 

'Oh hi, I didn't know you were here. I'm James, I'm also in Ma- I mean I'm just a friend of Adam.' James said, I had to laugh because obviously Adam hadn't told James about me knowing about Maroon 5. 

'She already knows, James. You can act normal right now,' Adam said to him. I stood up because I wanted to introduce myself but I thought to myself that James probably knew more about me than I knew about myself. 

'Well, okay. Then we don't have to make this more awkward than it already is,' James said to me. 

James stayed with us for a couple of hours. We talked with each other about Maroon 5 and about their newest hits. I loved hearing the two of them talking with great passion about their carreer. When it began to become dark outside James decided to go home. Adam suggested to watch a movie. So a couple of minutes later we lay down on the sofa and grabbed some soda and popcorn.

After watching three movies it was already becomming late so we decided to go to bed. Before going into our own rooms I walked up to Adam and gave him a hug. Adam kissed me on my forehead and we wished each other goodnight. I quickly changed into my pyjama and lay down on my bed. Staring at the ceiling becaus I knew I couldn't possibly get some sleep. My head was pounding because of all the emotions that I had felt today. 

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Hi guys! 

I began writing this two weeks ago and thought by myself that I was going to finish it the day after. But instead I kind of forget about it and I finished it today..

So I hope you can forgive me and that you like this chapter!

Honestly I'm just fangirling and shipping  them when I'm writing this, I know this is kind of bad haha!

So tell me what you think and vote if you like! :D

~ Jolene