Stupid Seconds *Sequel to TLF* (Luke & Jai Brooks Fanfic)

Chapter 7: Best Friends

* Jai's POV *

Being out with Luke and Andi today makes my heart break. I hate seeing them together. I hate seeing my best friend, Andi, having fun with my twin brother. I may have gotten them both together, but that doesn’t mean I don’t have feelings for Andi anymore. It doesn’t mean that I have moved on. I haven’t and being with them hurts so much. But Andi’s my weakness, I can’t seem to let go of her.

I know Andi has been trying to make it work for all of us. I love how she still worries about me. Sometimes I feel that Luke wants me out of Andi’s life but he can’t say it because the guilt gets to him. I knew him too well. He’s my twin after all. If it were me, I would also get tired of saying how I got them both together. If I were in Luke’s shoes, if I wasn’t his twin, maybe by now he has gotten rid of me. It’s not that I’m saying he’s mean, but of course, I wanted Andi all by myself. Call me selfish, but it’s the truth.

Andi’s has been my world. She has been the girl that makes me happy. It’s ironic how she’s also the girl who makes me cry these past few months. Luke is my twin. I really want to know why she chose him. Why not me? What’s the difference? I can’t get it off my mind. It’s getting too old but I just really want to know. I knew it would hurt me, but I don’t care anymore. I wanna be slapped with the truth.

“What do you wanna watch, Jai?” Andi asked.

“Anything you want, I’m good.”

“Oh okay.” she uttered.

Luke and Andi were looking at all the show titles and picking out which one to watch. Andi ended up choosing a comedy movie. Great, at least I won’t be that jealous. We went over to the concessionaire and Luke bought Andi a drink.

“Do you want popcorn?” Luke asked.

“No, I’m good. What about you, Jai? Do you want anything?” Andi asked.

“Nothing, I’m good.”

We went inside the theater and Andi let me go and take a seat at the row they have chosen. She came next so I was sitting beside her on her right while Luke was on her left. I remember the last time we watched a movie together. It was just yesterday, but it felt it has been forever. We were both happy. I was happy. I was having the time of my life. I didn’t even think about Luke editing our video at home. I was thinking of the present.

The movie started. The lights slowly dimmed. Luke’s arms were around Andi. Her head was leaning in Luke’s shoulder. What are you doing, Jai. You should be watching the movie and not them.

I tried to focus on the movie. I tried to laugh. But tears won’t stop from falling. I can hear other people laughing. I can hear Luke laugh. I can hear Andi giggle. But this movie wasn’t that funny to me. My mind was so occupied with jealousy and hate. I feel my hand was forming a fist ready to punch anything hard I could see right now. I hate myself for not being a good enough guy for Andi. I don’t know what went wrong. I don’t know what to do anymore. This isn’t healthy. I hate being a stupid second.

I’m a stupid second, a stupid second in Andi’s heart. Why can’t I be first? I’m her best friend. Don’t people fall in love with their best friends usually? It sucks being friend zoned.

As I was staring on the screen, I could feel my tears were falling. I don’t want to constantly wipe my tears because I don’t want people to see I’m crying while watching a funny movie. They would think I’m insane.

Good thing, I was on the edge or someone might think I’m a lunatic for crying. I can’t help it. My tears won’t just stop. From the corner of my eyes, I saw Andi trying to check if I was okay. Please don’t look. Please don’t look.