Stupid Seconds *Sequel to TLF* (Luke & Jai Brooks Fanfic)

Chapter 11: Shadows of the Past

* Jai's POV *

Once, I read this quotation online when I was searching for tips on how to move on from the one you love. I thought this was suitable for me. “Cry. Forgive. Learn. Move on. Let your tears water the seeds of your future happiness.” But honestly, moving on is easy. The only thing that’s hard to do is staying in the moved on phase.

I’d say moving on is like dieting. You have a certain goal in life that you want to remove in your future. When you’re dieting, you go to the gym to exercise and remove the unwanted fats. When you’re moving on, you get away from the pain and hurt that you have felt with the one you love. It’s not because you don’t love her anymore, but because there’s something else better for you in the future. I didn’t really want Andi out of my life. I only wished the hurt and love we once had, would be gone.

Since the time Sam and I saw Luke and Andi at Secret Recipe, everything has changed to think this all happened last night. I’m still confused though. Andi’s feelings towards me were still unsure. Her reaction when she saw me with Sam was cold. I knew her too well. I think she was upset. But I don’t know what she’s upset about. And knowing her, I shouldn’t assume on things.

I saw how she reacted the whole night. She was sitting in front of me and she kept on leaning to Luke’s side. I would say she was probably making me jealous, but it’s hell working. I was jealous. You can’t move on, Jai. Stop being jealous and be cool with it.

To tell you honestly, I was on the verge of walking out of this thing. I wanted to move on but being with Andi right now, that would take a very long time. They do say that when you’re moving on “you can’t look back – you just have to put the past behind you, and find something better in your future.”

Only Sam and Luke were conversing throughout the night. Andi was eating her food and casually leaning on Luke and getting his attention. I was secretly admiring her. Sometimes I’d focus myself on tweeting fans. Sometimes I would acknowledge Sam and smile at her. I wasn’t in the mood to eat. I lost my appetite especially when Luke was cuddling my girl in front of me. She was mine first and I let her go because of my brother. If I could turn back time, I wouldn’t let go of her. She’s mine.

The dinner ended well. We went out the mall and have split up into different cabs. When Sam was about to leave, Andi asked if I was bringing her home. It was the first time she talked to me since dinner. The second time was when Sam left and she asked me where I was going since Luke was bringing her home. But, I didn’t hear her say “Text me when you’re home so I know you got home safe”. She changed in a blink of an eye. But maybe she was helping me move on.

They left first and I didn’t take the next cab. I walked home alone. I wanted to think about things. I wanted to know why Andi was mad at me. I wanted to know why Andi acted that way towards me the whole night. Did Luke tell her something about me that changed her attitude towards me? I was lost. I wanted to talk to her but I can’t do that anymore. I already have decided to move on, and if I talk to her now, I might not be able to push through with my decision. I have to move forward.

“Hey Jai, thanks for staying and having dinner with me tonight. I hope you guys have a safe trip back home.” Sam sent me a message. It was a message I was looking forward hearing from Andi and not from Sam. I was used to hearing this all the time that sometimes I’d tease her and say it at the same time with her. But she didn’t mention it. She never texted. Did she forget about it, or she just doesn’t care anymore?

I got home after half an hour. My mum was still in the lounge room watching some show on TV. “Hey baby, how‘s your day?”

“It’s good thanks mum.”