Letters

Howling Commandoes

A/N: For a couple parts now, we're just going to have letters with varying dates on them. Don't be discouraged by how short they are. But this book will end soon and then it's on to the second installment! Thanks for reading thus far. Lots of love xx

December 9th, 1943

Dear Willow,

I am glad to hear that you are good and well and I know you want me to stop apologizing for joining the army unwittingly but.. I can't help myself. I was supposed to be home by now. We were supposed to be together by the middle of December. I was going to be home for Christmas and I'm sorry that I'm not. I want you to please spend the holiday with your friends. You need to be surrounded by people you love.

I was glad to hear that you spent thanksgiving with a coworker and the bonus you received from Wallace. You've done an amazing job there and you deserve a pay raise. I know that you had a leave of absence when you found out about Bucky and I and rightly so but I think you should take some vacation time off and relax. You work everyday of the week except Sunday and you need some time for yourself. Especially with everything going on.

About the Howling Commandos, of course they all know about you know. Bucky practically glows when he talks about you. I thought that was supposed to be me. When Bucky and I talk about you and some of our stories together, we always end up laughing more than telling the story.

What they've got so far though is that you're an amazing women, incredibly funny, honest and beautiful. They actually thought that Bucky was with you and not me. I guess it will always be like that though and I'm fine with it. I know you love Bucky but just not in the way that everyone thinks.

Soon, the Howling Commandoes and I are going to infiltrate and takeover another HYDRA base in France. I don't want you to be worried, we've planned everything out and these men have certain skills that will come in handy. I'm not going to let one of them die and I'll make sure to look out for Bucky as I'm sure he'll look out for me.

You said you missed my poems. Sorry I haven't been including them. I know I made a promise to write them so here you are.

When I look at you,
It's like looking at the moon.
You're so far away
And I wish you could stay.
And I'm like the sun,
When you fade away I've just begun.
We have a wonderful chase
That will end in grace.
You're my best friend
And I love you til the end.

I'll see you soon Willow. I miss you everyday. I love you.

Love,
Steven Rogers

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Hey Willow!

Steve and I thought we would save stamps by putting our letters together! I hope you don't mind. In fact, I know you won't. I have your last letter in front of me but I'm going to disregard all of that right now and get to the real talk..

You and Steve have been together for months and you haven't told me? I have to say, Im pretty surprised you both kept it a secret for so long. You can't really read tone in letters but neither of you mentioned the other as much as one might when you're in love with them. To be fair, Steve talked about you about the same much as he did before he knew you loved him. It was instant, non-stop Willow talk with him.

Steve just hit me. He's very sneaky now. Which is odd since he's such a big guy. Apparently he was reading over my shoulder. He told me to stop telling you about how much he used to talk about you which was all the time.

Now he's just said I'm over exaggerating and well.. He's kind of right.

I'm glad both of you are happy though. You two have always been perfect together. It's what I've been telling Steve for years. I don't think he ever quite believed me though. I think he believes me now though.

I hope your job is going well. Steve said you mentioned a pay raise. That's good! I'm excited to come back and find you a damn right business lady. I know you work in newspapers but who knows! You could be running that company in a few years.

I know you're concerned about what happened to me in the HYDRA base but don't worry. I'm fine, honest. The doctor gave me a clean bill of health. I guess they didn't experiment on me a much as they did the other guys that went through that lab. Guess I'm lucky.

Steve always writes you poems and so I want to do the same.

Roses are red
Violets are blue
I want to go to bed
This much is true

Hope you liked it! I miss you everyday Willow and I love you.
As my little sister that is.

Love,
James Barnes