"Standards" -Joshler

•Fifteen•

After we finished, I was the first one to leave. I carried the box and the balaclava

I small click came from behind me

"Josh wait please!"

I walked faster

"Josh It was nothing!"

I dropped the box in fury and turned round, our faces where close . I was furious, Tyler was terrified

"I've lost all fucking trust in you! I thought you loved me! You were there for me. How fucking dare you.. I kept breathing for you and I was stupid to think you'd ever like me. I know your secret and because I'm not a shitty person like you I'm not going to spread it. And, Brendon is a much better kisser then you've ever fucking been!"

It slipped out. I didn't mean it

"Ex-cuse me? I try to apologise to you and you've gone and kissed that five-head goat fucker? You're a dick, Josh. I hope you die"

Tyler stormed off

My heart shattered into a million and one pieces. I grabbed the box and the balaclava, I stormed away, tears streaming down my worthless cheeks

I shoved myself in my own home, rushed into my bathroom

Self Harm warning

The one person you love

He hates you

I know

Your family hates you

I know

That kiss with Brendon was nothing and he used you

I'm an object

Your followers don't even care

They never have

You see that razor? Pick it up

Maybe

Pick it up now

Okay, I've got it

Good

Now draw pretty lines on your arms

Please stop

Do it Josh

I can't do this anymore

Do it

Okay

Deeper

This is as deep as I physically can

Good

It hurts

Good

I can't breathe

I can't see

What happening?

Make it stop!

No