"Standards" -Joshler

•Eighteen•

Sing a song but don't believe

Tyler's cold hands gripped my waist as he aided me to walk. He'd brought one of his long sleeved jumpers and I immediately fell in love with it. I'd lost weight because I didn't want to eat when Ty wasn't there

He made the world seem crisp perfect, alike how precise a snowflake can form.

My body still ached and the tablets made me tired all the time. I'd be off them soon

Hopefully

However, my only was all I needed right now. I'd forgiven him, and he'd forgiven me. He was a drug that I could take whenever and it had no side effects

Atleast, that's what I wanted to believe

"I was thinking, I could grab us Taco Bell and we could go to mine?" Tyler smiled, making squishy eyes

"Sounds great!" I nodded, adjusting my arm around his neck and pushing my lips against his cheek. His skin was so soft, he was such an adorable person

His olive hands cupped around my cheeks, merging our bodies together, his chocolate eyes where soft and beautiful

"My broken boy. Always"

And with that we kissed. His lips where cracked and torn, it hurt me a little to see I did this too him. He's killing himself by falling in love with me.

"I don't want you to ever try this again. I love you too much"

Hypocrite, take your pick

Cause the poisons on my lips

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We had our food and we where heading home, Tyler opened me the car door and I hopped out.

Tyler had ordered extra, I didn't question it though

I looked left; Brendon's house

I hated the sight of it, that was the path I ran down. We kissed in his fucking bathroom. How stupid was I?

"Josh?" Tyler looked at me with a concerned expression. I realised I had stopped.

"Sorry it's just, I feel really bad"

My body was enveloped in his hug, he hummed into my neck while drawing pretty patterns on my back with his thumb

"I told you. I forgive you and I love you"

We kissed again, hands grabbing at eachother. I was afraid of loosing him

I was afraid

We parted and he grabbed my hand, pulling me forward with a giggle. He was so god damn cute

We hopped through the door and he opened the door to his kitchen

"SUPRISE!"

A huge banner that read "Welcome Back Josh <3" hung from the ceiling as tonnes of fairy lights made the area beautiful. Patrick stood there with cake with Dallon by his side grasping onto presents. Another guy stood by Patrick, I didn't recognise him

"Oh my god! I love you all" I broke down into tears as Tyler brought me into a hug, kissing my head lightly

"I'm sorry I didn't come and see you Josh, I felt so mad but after Brendon explained I realised it wasn't your fault" Dallons voice rung, placing the presents on the table and tugging me into a hug. I was full on sobbing, I couldn't believe this was happening

"Yeah, this is Pete. Tyler introduced us!" Patrick shook slightly, he wore a huge smile

"So you're the lucky boy? I'm Tyler's best friend, great to meet you!" I shook his hand, I was estatic.

I wasn't alone

"Ready for some Taco Bell?" Tyler asked rather loudly and we all replied with a huge yes

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Pete was pretty cool but he totally kept giving Pat sex eyes. While we are talking about that, Tyler kept hinting at it. Grabbing my ass and sucking my neck, and asking me "What's up?" when he made me moan

I wasn't complaining

Dallon had completely forgiven me and said he was going to talk to Brendon

It was all good again.

I think it was anyway

Blasphemy is just for me