"Standards" -Joshler

•TwentyNine•

Josh's POV

I banged in the door, he wasn't replying, I was screaming his name, no answer

So I kicked it down, sorry Mrs.Joseph

"Tyler?" I stumbled round quietly until my eyes came apon a piece of paper

Josh

I figured you would've gotten in, so I wrote you this. You probably think I'm a Pyscho and truth is, I am

Im sorry, I fucked up, I'm not gay. I can't be gay, I love you though and that's what's killing me inside. I'm not allowed to love you Josh, you could do so much better then me. The first time I saw you I made you look at me because I was afraid I'd never see you again. I didn't want to believe that this whole "love at first sight" bullshit existed

But you've made me question so much, friends, family, sexuality. The whole package. I'm starting think I'm really in love, no secondary bull shit

You scare the shit out of me Josh, you're the only person that can snap me in half.

Anyways, Josh, I can't live up to the standards so I've decided to stop living. I'm going away, I'm basically dead. I'm thinking of a nice island with cocktails and partys. Don't come looking for me, you have such a futre

I don't, I've failed everything. So fuck it

Fuck it all

Stay alive

Tyler

Warm tears came flooding down my face as I shook my head. Muttering "Nos"

I stumbled onto the couch, cradling my head. Murky memories filling my mind

Why would he do this?

He saved me, right?

A few hours passed, it was cold and dark, I had the news on

"Teen age boy found on the street, beaten up, he is in hospital at a critical state. Officers managed to receive a bus pass from his bag and his phone. His name is Tyler Robert Joseph, if you know anything about the assault of this boy please come forward to the police. We found a note book in his hand at the time, with a personalised message. We believe he wrote it before the incident

Joshua (censored) Dun, I love you"

Tyler couldn't live up to the standards

So he stopped living

(End)

This story was always going to be ended like this. The reader decides what happens next

I'll be starting Slowtown soon so keep an eye out

Thankyou so much for everyone that read! The support kept me going

Much love

Fran