Masked Hearts

Chapter 6 - Octavian's P.O.V.

When I was at camp Jupiter the only person that cared for me was actually a stuffed animal named Augustus. Don't get me wrong, Augustus was great. I wish I hadn't left him in my barracks.

"War will be too dangerous for you Augustus. Be strong without me. I'll come back soon."

Yeah, I still talk to my stuffed animal.

Well not anymore...

I was thinking about Augustus when Rachel squeezed my hand. Augustus was the last thing that cared. But she squeezed my hand. She cared. Just a little bit. W-wow. I did feel dizzy. I did feel a little horrible. And I was panicking. I was really panicking. The outside world was full of hate and pain, pain directed to me, I assume. My inward world is already full of hate and pain and I was scared... Scared of both worlds. I pulled way.

My hand slipped from hers, my footing slipped on the ground.

I didn't know what scared me more, the fact that someone for some reason cared for me, or the truth that no one else did, no one else ever would. There was a world I was falling toward at alarming speeds and I was terrified that people would hurt me.

How'd that translate into me hurting myself?

How'd that translate into me going berserk on the ground in front of the big house.

And I was going absolutely mad, spasming around on the ground. This wasn't helping my cause. Which of course was to be ignored and die in peace. I don't like attention. Ugh...

"GET ME INSIDE!" I screamed "PLEASE!"

And then... I blacked out.

My dreams were of Camp Jupiter. Being back there. Picked on. Laughed at. Gossiped about. I was just there doing what I knew how to do. What I'd been taught to do by the Augur before me. What I'd been born to do. I wasn't supposed to be born to be Augur. I was supposed to be born to be Praetor. And every time it was made abundantly clear that I couldn't be, that I was freak and would never be, things just got worse. And worse.

Reyna hated me quietly.

Jason and Dakota hated me when I was in eavesdropping range.

And everyone else? I'm sure they hated me, I just never saw it, because they always avoided me. Even people in my cohort avoided me. Even people I trusted, Like Michael Kahale.

But not Augustus.

And...

Not Rachel.

Why not Rachel?

Why is that such a bad thing?

Because Rachel is real.

And I'd stopped believing someone real could like me as a person.

Not that she does.

She can't.

I don't even like me as a person.

But she doesn't hate me.

She's taking care of me.

Why does that scare me?

Why do I hate that?

Because I hate her.

I've hated her from the second I've met her.

Oracle.

Ugh.

Think's she's better than me because she doesn't have to play with dolls?

DO YOU THINK I LIKED IT?

DO YOU THINK I LIKED THE THUNDER AND THE HEADACHES AND THE FLUFF IN MY HAIR AND THE ACCIDENTAL CUTS ON MY FINGERS I HATED IT!

I hated it...

I hate everything...

I didn't used to... but it hated me so i hated it back...

I hate it...

Let me die...

I can't go home...

I... can't... go... home...

Because I don't have one...

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Hi, guys!

First of all, I want to apologize for not posting last weekend, but it was a very hectic weekend, as well as Carnaval and, unsurprisingly, the weather changes made my allergies come back again... Remember, when things get bad, they can get worse and worst!

Anyway, today is a multiple update. I won't only post last weekend's chapters, but also this weekend. Also, I will post my be-late Valentine's Day present to my lovable BF who means everything for me... (In advance, babe, I apologize if the story is crap...)

Anyway, here they are!

Rise of Ouranos (ReWrite) (former collab with LordNitro): 2 chapters!

Maidenhood (adopted from TheColorofBoom): 2 chapters!

Sis/Bro, Your Shadow is Hot!: 2 chapters!

Quest: Matchmade (former collab with Hugs6): 2 chapters!

Masked Hearts (former collab with Hugs6): 2 chapters!

You Call Him Devil, I Call Him Dad - Lucifer: Unique Chapter!

I'll see you next weekend, as I'm planning to have several chapters before I leave on vacations... I'll let you know details!

xoxo, SilverHuntresses