Contrast (Being Rewritten)

Chapter 58

Willow

"Are you ready for school?" My mom asks me as I check my back pack for the third time.

"Yeah, I think so." I sigh as I stand up. In a way I'm ready for school yet I'm also not. I'm in a dire need for distraction from thinking whether Carmen is going to make it or not and is the only reason I want to go to school. The reason I don't want to go to school is because by now everyone has probably heard about Carmen over the 3 day weekend. Another reason is I'm going to have to face seeing Sam and Jordan together.

I don't like Jordan anymore, so that's not the reason I am not looking forward to seeing them together, the reason is because he would do anything just to make me jealous and I just really hate them both right now.

"Do you want me to drive you?" She asks as she wipes her hand on a rag. I shake my head, "Ok, well, have a good day." She walks over and gives me hug then goes back to washing dishes. I grab my truck keys and head out the door. I feel my tummy twist and turn into knots, just from thinking what's going to happen today.

As I jump into the pickup I throw my back pack in the passengers seat then start the truck. I look around to make sure I have everything, but notice something missing. My drivers license. I check my book bag then the cubby hole and glassy see it laying neatly in there. As I grab it a gold necklace falls out onto the floorboard. I look at it funny for a moment before I pick it up. As I untangle the chain it starts to look more and more familiar. I look at the word on it, Willow. This is the golden locket Jordan gave me at Cody's party. I had completely forgotten that I had shoved it in there the morning we had broken up. I hold it in my hand for a moment then shove it in. my pocket.

As I drive to school I can feel the locket burning a hole in my pocket. I find a parking spot then mentally prepare myself for all the stares and whispers I'm gonna get once I walk in. I take a deep breath then slowly make my way in, dreading everything about this day. I slowly open the door then look around glad that the gym is empty. I let out a deep breath then slowly walk through to the stairs.

I walk up the stairs, not even bothering to count my steps. As I step onto the last set of stairs I see two teachers at the top of the stairs, rapidly whispering. Once they see me though they both stop and stare, one of them giving me a look of disgust and the other looking at me sympathetically before they rush down the stairs past me to continue their whispering.

And they say teenagers are bad about gossiping? At times I swear teachers are worse. As I walk through the hallway to my lockers everyone goes quiet and stops and stares. I keep my focus down as I put in my combination.

"She is the one whose friend jumped from the bridge Wensday night," A girl whispers.

"I heard that the reason she jumped off was because she found out she was pregnant," A guy whispers.

"That is nonsense! I heard that her friend, what's her name? Willow? Went mental and pushed her off. " A girl argued back to the guy, like she knew everything. I whip around and glare at everyone. Remember the golden rule, Willow! I remind myself so I don't say anything that'll get me in trouble.

"Yes! I am the girl who's friend jumped off the bridge for God knows what reason, I don't even know why! So you guys all can stop whispering about her behind my back, cause all these rumours are wrong. You can go back to whispering to whatever the hell you want, but stop whispering about Carmen and I." I yell into the hallway full of kids. After I get done some run out, some turn to their lockers and the rest stick to gaping at me like I've just said they only had ten days to live. I shake my head then turn back to my locker to finish grabbing my stuff for first hour.

Maybe I was wrong, maybe every teenager in this entire school are gonna be bad about whispering today. Or everyone is gonna be bad, about it today? For my sake I hope it isn't. I sigh then slam my locker door and start to head down the stair towards first hour, I look down and tune out all the whispers as I walk down the stairs. As I just step down the last step onto first floor a hand grabs my should and stops me. I jump around, breathless.

"Willow, I called your name from third floor to first," Cody breathlessly says. I look up into his dark chocolate brown eyes, memorized. You think by hanging out with him a lot I would get used to him, but as everday goes by, I feel like my love for him grows. 

"Willow! Are you ignoring me or what? Answer me!" He pulls me out of my thoughts. I feel warmth creep up my cheeks.

"No, it's just all the whispering and stares are getting to me. So, I've been trying to tune it out and I'm guessing it's working." I sigh. 

 "Oh, I'm really sorry about Carmen." He says as we start walking towards the gym.

"It's ok. It's not like you've could of done anything about it," I shrug. 

"I've been-" Cody starts to say, but as I see Kyle walk by I stop him.

"Kyle! Are you ok? You look terrible!" I look down at his cut knuckles, propably from the crash I heard over the phone Wensday. His clothes are untidy, his hair unbrushed, nothing like the normal Kyle who always dresses to impress. 

"What? Oh, yeah, I am." He insisted.

"Are you sure?" I ask.

"Yes," He growls before he stomps up the stairs. I shake my head then start towards the gym again.

"So what were you gonna say?" I ask Cody as we make our way towards class.

"Hmm? Oh, I was gonna ask you if you wanted to."He trailed.

"Wanted to what?" I ask. I feel my excitement level jump, the day I've waited forever for. 

"Willow," I silently curse to myself and turn my gaze towards whoever said my name. "I'm so sorry about Camren,"

"It's ok," I sigh to Principle Oak. 

"I feel terrible though, the last thing I said to her were quite harsh." She shakes her head and stares at the papers in her hand. "The school counselor said that if you ever need to talk just go up to her office," She smiles warmly at me then walks away. 

Counselor? She must think I'm the crazy one. "Sorry about that. Now let's try this again, what were you gonna say?" I turn back towards Cody. As he starts to speak the last bell before first hour rings. 

"Um forget it." He shrugs then walks away. Really? I groan as I walk towards class.