Spinning Down

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The bad thoughts
They came back
Wouldn't let me go
Wouldn't set me free
Wouldn't leave me be
I couldn't shake them
No matter how hard I tried
Finally
I broke
I fell
Spinning down
Farther
And farther
"You shouldn't be alive"
"You're worthless"
"You can't do anything"
That's what they said
They can't say anything nice
Not ever
Why won't they leave me alone
Just leave me be
Or kill me
Set me free
Just please
This pain hurts so bad
Make it stop
I can't take it
I want to break free
But it's harder than it looks
I don't want to here
On earth
Send me to hell or heaven
Just somewhere else
I can't take it
I'm falling
Never stoping
I can't be clean for long
It's hard
It's the easy way out
Yet here I am
Spinning down

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