Letters To You

six

Dear You,

Remember the feeling you get after you watch a scary movie?

The feeling of pure fear? Maybe its a lot or maybe its a little but there is fear there.

Well did you ever think that you could make someone feel pure fear just by sitting there?

Did you ever think you could make someone live in fear?

Did you ever imagine that you could make someone so scared of messing up or making you mad or making a mistake that they always worry about that for every second of every day?

That nothing would ever enter their mind except for what will happen if they do by chance make a mistake?

Not many people know what it feels like to be the victim of you, but I do. I sure do.

It is indescribably awful.

A little 11 year old girl shouldn't have to know what it feels like to live in that type of fear. No 11 year old should. No one should.

But I did.

You promised to love me. you promised to take care of me.

Maybe you did at one point, but I don't remember.

There isn't a true point to this letter, but I felt it needed to be wrote.

it does need to be wrote because how many people out there have felt my pain and more? a lot. so maybe somehow this letter will help them. I know it wont do squat for you, but maybe for someone else.

I hope you got the point, because I just realized the point.

The point of this letter was for you to see you made me live in fear for 9 years of my life. it didn't start at 11 nor did it stop there.

Thank you though, because I probably wouldn't be as strong as I am today if it weren't for you.

Although I wouldn't of needed to be if it weren't for you, so I guess this is a bittersweet thank you.

Well anyways I hope you never make anyone feel the way I felt again. please never do.

I feel like there is more to say, but there isn't.

well okay then.

-Me.