Only The Beginning

5

Today, I decided to look for a job. We need some money of we are going to move in together. We still don't know where or when we are going to. I wish we would talk about it more often: ( I snapped out if my thoughts and hopped out of bed.
I decide not to bother James this morning. He was sweet last night.....so he deserves to sleep in and not wake up at 7:30 am.
I slipped on a shirt. I grabbed my phone and laptop and headed downstairs.
The sun was just rising. I started some coffee then walked out into the porch to get a better look.
"I hope me and James won't have to leave this place. But if that's what's best then....I don't know." I put my hand in my head. I grabbed my coffee,phone,and laptop and sat in the porch swing.
I took a drink of my hot coffee.
I sat it down on the table beside me and opened my laptop.
"Okay....wedding venues!" I said looking for some.
I have been looking for a good 20 minutes now!
"God! I never knew how exciting this is!" I said sarcastically and rolled my eyes. I grabbed my stuff and sat down at the table inside.
I grabbed notebooks and papers. I wrote stuff down.
"I really like this theme...wait but he doesn't like that color.... No we can change it! I wrote the theme down and thought for a moment.
" CRAP! He doesn't like that does he?" I said erasing it. I put my head in my arms and began to breath heavy.
"Okay calm down,lets look at some houses near here!" I opened my laptop back up.
"Ooo,i mean that isn't a house but its a big apartment!" I said clicking on it."okay,4 bedrooms, 1 large bathroom, a kitchen,living room,and a great view!" The reviews of how everyone else liked the house were AMAZING! I saved that to my files and then....I saw the price.
"$10,576?!?" I yelled,my face buried in my hands. I closed my laptop and began to breath heavy again,"why is this so difficult? I always thought.. Oh I am getting married. Wait a year or two and get it over with, buy a house,and start a family. And it was that easy....I never would have thought of it like this. This was so exhausting and stressful! But I am doing it because....

I love him!