Beautiful Goodbye

Chapter 10: I Shouldn't Have Said That

I'm terribly sorry if someone was waiting for this update. I notice that it's been almost a month since I last updated. I've been busy with school (I know bla bla bla). It's my exam week and I'm always a better writer when I have to do more important things. So ta-da a new chapter. Haha I hope you like it though!

I would like to say sorry in advance for the amount of profanities used in this chapter. Haha. Alex wouldn't be Alex without his swear words, I guess. This would be another heartbreaking chapter to say the least. No happy Alex or happy Cassandra... yet. And sorry for annoying you with this author's note in the beginning of the chapter. I'll try not to do that again. Happy reading! xx

Chapter 10: I Shouldn't Have Said That

Damn the freaking light hurts my eyes. I must have forgotten to close the curtains last night. I rolled around the comfortable cushions, shielding away from the source. When did Allen's couch start feeling so comfy? Hmmm I guess sleeping on the couch for three weeks would eventually make it feel like thousands of fluffy clouds clamped together.

But shit! My freaking head hurts! I can still literally hear blasting music in my ears. Just how much alcohol did I drink last night? Who the hell drove us home?! Where was Allen and Jayce?!! Shit too many questions as early as this morning.

Still half asleep, I screwed my eyes open as wide as I could with the light blinding me. Then I knew I wasn't at Allen's couch at all! I was laying in a bed with a purely white duvet firstly. Damn, there I thought I was getting used to the couch. But what the fcuk?! What exactly happened last night?! If I'm not at Allen's house and I'm definitely not at Jayce', then where the hell was I?

Fcuking shit! Did I screw someone last night?! I threw the duvet off my body! Shit! Shit! Shit! I was only wearing boxers!

I began panicking as I sprung out the bed. No, no, no! Fcuking no! Please tell me I didn't have a fcuking one night stand with some blonde bimbo. Shit! No! I felt so dirty! I cheated on Cassandra with a blonde bimbo! I mean we're not together but I still feel like I did! Fcuk! Where the hell is the blonde bimbo anyway? Early waker?

Shit! I don't remember anything that happened last night-- only bits and pieces. After feeling crashed not seeing Cassandra, I just felt like letting loose. Not caring about the consequences of getting drunk off my ass. I just want to punch myself senseless right now. This wasn't suppose to freaking happen!! Fcuk me and my lack of self control! That's it. I'm never getting drunk again!

I dashed around the room, looking for my clothes. Instead of seeing my clothes splayed around the room, I see Jayce on the floor. I moved closer to him and looked for signs of breathing. Yeah, he is alive. But a horrendous thought came alive. If we were both sleeping in the same room... then does that mean... I did the nasty with Jayce and the supposed 'blonde bimbo'.

Oh shit! I feel like puking! And puke I did. I made it just in time to the toilet before all of last night's consumptions got decorated on the clean floor. I must have puked for ten minutes until I was left dry heaving on the bathroom floor. Worst hangover ever.

I nudged Jayce with my foot as I got out of the bathroom. But he refused to wake up. He just groaned and twisted and turned on the floor.

Rolling my eyes, I decided to explore the house and maybe find my clothes in the process.

As I reached the ground floor, I automatically see Allen slouched on the kitchen counter. As I came closer to him, then I saw he was with someone. Was that Leanne? Yeah the sad girl from the bar.

The two looked towards me when I walked in to the kitchen. Leanne is the only girl I see. Does that mean I did the deed with her?! Oh no!

"Dude! Put some pants on!" Jayce exclaimed.