Bullied By Them, Loved The Other

what?

It's been almost a year. I try my hardest to erase those thoughts from my head but I can't. I end up feeling like the worst piece of shit all in the end.

Victor and Jaime try to befriend me and apologize but I just feel like pushing them away. I feel like they don't deserve my time. I want to completely remove Victor, Jaime, Mike, and everyone else out of my life. The only person I want in my life right now is Tony. Mike isn't very nice every now and then, like when I completely ignore him and go my own way and not his.

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Tony is in a band now with three other people, however he's keeping those people a secret from me. He won't tell me who he's in the band with, he hasn't even told me the name. He's been going out a lot now and just completely secretive about some things it's just getting difficult.

"So what's this name of the band your in?" I questioned. Tony just looked at me with his mouth as an o shape and said it was a secret. "Why is it a secret?" I asked. "Because it's a secret, you'll find out more about it sometime in the future." Tony said while packing a bag. He said he was staying out overnight with his "band".

I feel like I'm losing Tony gradually, and we only have two more years of school together. That means that probably by the time schools done I'll lose him, forever. Just the thought made me upset.

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I woke up and stepped outside the bedroom. I walked into the kitchen and saw a note from Tony.
Good morning love,
I am sorry but I'm coming home late
I should be back at eight tonight see you then.

What the fuck is going on.
Tony had been so secretive. I'm trying to keep my mind open about this, but I wonder, even when I try not to.