Bullied By Them, Loved The Other

Forgiveness

I woke up in a hotel. Somewhat close to where warped tour was. I showered and freshened myself up.  I also ate breakfast...for the first time.  I told myself that I had to speak with Tony.  I didn't want to speak to Tony but I knew I needed to.  I got a cab to take me to their venue, this had to be done, I couldn't avoid it any longer.  I approached the venue and made my way towards his bus.  I realized that he might not be alone but it was time I man up. I had to get my shit together...and stop being afraid.  I mentally prepared myself for what might happen. I walked up to their bus and knocked.

The door opened and I saw Victor.  Thank goodness I wore sunglasses to avoid this contact and pressure.  "Hi um is Tony here?" I tried to sound as polite and nice as possible, I didn't want to get lashed at.

Víctor looked inside the bus and made some sort of face to whoever was inside. He nodded for me to come in.  As soon as I stepped inside, I saw no Tony. I saw Jaime, Mike, and obviously Victor.  My heart was pounding. I had to take off my sunglasses and wipe under my eyes from my own nervousness. I wasn't crying I was just nervous. 

"Sit, please" Jaime was sooooo stern and it scared me. I shook my head no and held my hands together and headed for the door.  Victor launched himself in front to stop me from leaving. Fucking bastard. 

"Mariah, it's pretty clear you remember who we are and we all remember you, this is important so...please just sit and hear us out." Jaime lightened up slightly. I was scared stiff. 

"Look Mariah, we wanted to apologize to you." Mike started off, "Yeah, since everything that happened between us, our actions have been heavily weighing in on us." Victor continued. 

"Mariah, I'm sorry treated you the way I did. I'm sorry about everything I said.  I remember everything I said to you and...it's effected me by a lot."  Jaime looked awful, and it made me feel awful.  "We understand why you didn't want to hear from us in high school, but I want you to accept our apology." Mike kept looking down wish Shane written all over him.

"I don't understand, what made you apologize?  Why did you treat me like that anyways?" I asked looking up.   "We don't know why we treated you like how we did, maybe we were angry at something.  Seeing you again made reminded me how hurt Tony was after the whole ordeal, and seeing you reminded me of my dark....twisted ways." Victor had red eyes.

"Mariah, I know I meant the things I said to you at the time, but now I know how serious a-and how much effect those things have....and I want you to know that I didn't mean any if it." Jaime sounded so...sincere. I don't know if I should believe it or not. 

"Is this for real?" I asked with a questioning look, "We are serious 100 percent."  Victor said with a nod.  "I forgive you all." I said with no emotion.  "I'm also assuming Tony isn't here so I'll be going." I headed to the door but Jaime stopped me.   "He actually went looking for you." As soon as Jaime said that I stopped dead in my tracks "Wait, what?" I turned around.