Bullied By Them, Loved The Other

Apology accepted

We got to my place and settled down a bit after the dinner.

"Tony I just wanted to thank you. I know you have your own thoughts and such but I wanna thank you for being there for me. You mean so much more to me than you could imagine." I confessed to Tony how I felt. I knew he was depressed. I could see it on his face. He didn't look happy. "You mean the world to me, you're still my best friend, that hasn't changed." Tony has the most beautiful eyes and his smile is perfect. It was seducing. "I wanted to ask you this but I just didn't know how to ask. Remember that day in the gym behind the stage curtains......Babe...do you still...?" I dreaded this question. I didn't want to answer. "The last time was maybe six months ago....I'm so sorry Tony. I- I just I was in a really bad period of my life and I...Im so sorry." This was the most awkward thing ever.

Tony pulled me into a tight embrace, with one hand on the small of my back. "You don't have to be sorry, I know that everything you went through couldn't just easily be forgotten about. It was all some pretty deep shit." Tony finished sitting on the edge of my bed with his hand held together. I wrapped my arms around his body and held him close. "Tony...I honestly feel like you have your own battles going on, you can talk to me, remember we're best friends. You can always come to me." I rested my head on his shoulder and Tony rested his head on mine.

I woke up the next morning with Tony's arms wrapped around me. Tony's grip tightened when he changed positions. He smelled so good. I turned around and kissed him on the forehead. He slowly smiled and kissed me back.

Tony's phone rang with Mike on the line. "Yeah, fine I'll come help your ass.....I love you too Mike". Tony hung up the phone. "Mike wants me to come help him install some thing he has and Vic refuses to help him. You wanna come?" No. I nodded my head in agreement that I'd come. I just didn't want to be alone. I got dressed and we both headed out to where their bus was at the venue.

Tony opened up the door and we walked inside. Everyone was in their bunks besides Mike.  I sat on the couch and texted Jhene in the meantime.  Jaime walked over to where I was sitting and sat down directly next to me even though there were seats everywhere.  He looked me in the face, and I could tell something was off....

"Mariah...I need to get some things off my chest...' this was way to odd for me, I mean he already apologized but this is....much.   "I- you don't understand how hurt I am right now.  I hurt you and I just wanna take everything back..."  his eyes were red.  "Jaime look I'm sorry that-" those were pretty much the first words I've spoken to him.   He looked me in the eyes with his red as fire "Don't- never be sorry for pain I've put on you.  I can't get over what I've said to you and the physical abuse...I spit at you, I hit you, I've kicked you with all my force...I told you to kill yourself, and that's not right.   I've caused you to hurt yourself and I- I'm sorry..." he held his head down and wouldn't look at me.  I could've sworn I saw a tear fall.  I did the unimaginable...I hugged him.  I forgave my bully. 

Vic walked in after Jaime stepped off the bus.  He sat down next to me and I felt slightly less nervous.  I wiped my eyes, after all Jaime made me a wee bit emotional.  Vic held my hand in his, "I know Jaime came back to apologize...and I'm here to do the same."  He was much more consoled than Jaime ever was.  He also had a more serious look as well. 

A huge crash came from the curtain Mike and Tony went behind.  "FUCK" Mike shouted from behind the curtain, Tony laughed. 

"Anyway I just wanted to apologize properly.  I remember the things I've said, and done to you were way out of line.  I just want you to know how sorry I am, I would do anything to take that stuff back." Vic finished, and I hugged him too.  This was something that I never thought I'd do and to be honest, I'm happy I forgave them. "I do want to know one thing though....did we drive you to self harm?" He asked looking up at me.  I didn't know what to say because I wanted to be honest but I didn't want to hurt him either.  "There were other contributing factors...but yeah."  His face completely changed and I felt bad...

"I really fucked up..." I shook my head. I knew he fucked up but this was just...hard for me to see.  "No...it's okay now."  I tried to convince him but he wasn't having it.  "No it'll never be okay!"  Vic somewhat raides his voice and fled the bus...like Jaime.  That triggered Tony to exit him and Mike's alone time.  "What's going on?" Mike stumbled out after Tony did.  I didn't know what to say.  I was frozen.  "I-I don't know...Vic and I were talking and...I don't know..." Mike had to have known something about this. He looked different.

"I think Vic's having a bad day...he got caught in his zipper this morning."  Mike completely changed the conversation and Tony laughed.  

Later that day it was just Mike, myself and sweet Tony.   We all stared drinking, without Vic or Jaime.  That's when Tony's phone rang.  "Hello.....wait?...is he okay? Yeah I'm coming to the station." Tony sighed and hung up.  Tony stood up and put on his jacket.  "Jaime got arrested..." was all that came out. 

"What the fuck do you mean Perry?" Mike asked putting down his drink.  "That's all I know, they wouldn't tell me any more...we gotta go pick him up." 

As soon as we got to the station,  Tony made the inquiry about Jaime.  "We'll have him out for you in just a minute, I just need you to sign here."  The fat guy behind the counter went to go get Jaime.   In the meantime Mike tried calling Vic but got no answer.

Jaime walked out with this pissed look on his face and bruises on his fists.  "Jaime what the fuck happened?, I stopped drinking for this!" Mike said walking behind Jaime. We left the police station and went back to their bus at the venue and continued drinking. Jaime didn't want to speak and when he did he was frustrated.  After an hour Jaime went to his bunk and mike and Tony left the bus. The door was slightly open when I heard them talking.  "Do you think that what Jaime did had to do with Mariah?"  I'm guessing Tony heard what happened this morning...everything.  "I don't know man.  That's something that you'd have to ask him." I smelled weed.  I looked out of the tinted window and saw Mike passing a joint to Tony. They then proceeded talking about something else.

I walked to Jaimes bunk.  "I wanna talk to you for a minute."  He looked at me and sat up and then raised his eyebrows as a signal for me to proceed.  "Did you get arrested because of me?"   This past 24 hours has just been full of questions that did not need to be asked.  He shook his head no and smirked. "No, actually it was a bar fight."  he said while jumping down and walking with me to the couches.  "Why'd you come with them to pick me up. Don't you like hate me?" I shook my head no, "I came with because I wanted to." 

There was a long moment of silence when Mike and Tony came back in smelling like weed.  We all chilled out for some time watching a movie. Mike and Jaime went to bed and Tony fell asleep on the couch.  Still no Vic.  I shook Tony a little but to wake him up "Tone, I'm gonna head back to my place, you're welcome to come."  He wiped the sleep from his eyes, "I'd love to but I think I should wait up for Vic."  I kissed Tony and left the venue.