Bullied By Them, Loved The Other

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It's been a few weeks now,  me and tony are official.  His face healed mostly and so has my back.  School is still the same,  Mike has been making threats that scare the shit outta me,  so I try to at least do what he says. 

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I woke up with Tony next to my side,  I was snuggled into his chest listening to the thump of his heartbeat.  I started tracing circles on his chest while he slept, as his chest was rising and falling to reach breath he took.  It was hard to imagine that he's lonely in life,  just like me.  He's the best person anyone could ask for.   

I fell asleep for a while in Tony's arms.  When I woke up tony was looking down at me,  and hugging me with a tight grip.  I looked up at his big brown eyes and hugged him tighter. 

Now I know what it feels like to be loved.

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Me and tony where watching star wars.  I told him to pick the movie -_-  never again by the way.   I was sitting on the couch while Tony went to get the popcorn. I layed down on the couch while Tony was fetching the popcorn.  I didn't realize he came into the room until he layed down on top of me,  with the bowl of popcorn on his stomach.   Luckily he wasn't crushing my boobs with his head,  you know how that feels. 

It's been about an hour,   Tony's breathing lightened up so I knew he fell asleep.  I rested my arms on his stomach and found the remote, then turned the TV off.   Tony's body was so warm and lifeless as he slept.

*start of dream*
"Mariah guess what!"  Tony yelled from the kitchen.  "What, what, what is it?" I asked.  "My band pierce the veil just got asked to play warped tour.  This is so awesome!  I'm so excited,  we leave for tour in a week!" Said tony with loads of excitement.   I was so happy for him but what about me?!  I know I sound selfish but what if he forgets about me?  What if he finds someone better?  What if he gets hurt and I can't see him?   What if he leaves? All kinds of  questions raced around my mind.  Tony, he's gonna forget about me I know he will.
*end of dream*

I woke up and Tony was watching over me,  and holding my hands.   "Mariah w-what's wrong?" Tony asked.  Something was wrong I didn't want to admit it though because he's already done so much.  "Uh yeah I'm fine" I said giving him a fake smile, hoping he'd think it was real.