Sufin/Dennor one shots

Crazy Boy (Hongice and Dennor)

((This fic was easier to write, as it's from the perspective of someone with a mental illness, like myself. Yes, mine is professionally diagnosed by a psychiatrist, please leave me alone. Anyway, this is a peek into some of that... oh, and -----s in this mean there's a time lapse. Hope you enjoy... I may write a second chapter))
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It hurts to have everything taken from you in the blink of an eye.

The pain and resentment just doesn't ever seem to fade.

It's horrible, isn't it?

Just enough to make a person go insane.

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Hello. I'm Emil Steilsson, and i'm a patient in a mental institute. Not that that matters... as I act like any other human being... kinda. There's only one thing different about me: If anyone hurts me, intentional or not I will hurt them back.
Yes, i've killed before.
Do I regret doing so?
It depends.

My older brother works at the institute where i live. He is allowed by the owner of the facility to take care of me, and share my room even though he could have a much better room. He could have a much better life too. Why does he stay? Why does he care about me so much? I'm nothing special. Just a little, crazy, teenage boy with ashen blonde hair and violet eyes.

But I guess it's my eyes that draws others to me. They're wide and innocent, yet cold at the same time. The color is apparently, 'incredibly rare' and 'The most beautiful thing ever seen' according to the doctors.

I know they're just trying to make me feel better about myself. Thanks doctors, but i'm not going to feel better until you let me out of here...

Anyway, a new boy was admitted into the facility yesterday.
I've been watching him, and he seems normal enough... though he likes to steal things.
I've seen him steal from the doctors, and I think it's funny.

I want to talk to this boy, he's about my age. His hair is long in the front, with dark side bangs to his chin and his eyes are a captivating golden brown.
He likes to wear the color red.
His favorite animal is a panda.
He naps almost all the time.
His face is so attractive.
No no, I don't stalk, I just watch. Casually.

My brother Lukas told me to stay away from the teen, but I won't. He's too interesting to stay away from.
I promise not to kill him.
He's too precious to kill.

I think he knows I watch him. He's smarter than most others. It makes me excited to know that maybe we're similar.

Now's my chance to meet someone like me.

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His name is Leon, and he's a kleptomaniac as well as a partial pyromaniac. He's perfect.

I talked to him, and we went to my room. We chatted for a long time before he had to go. Tomorrow... tomorrow i'm going to tell him how much I like him.

I promise not to hurt him.
He's too beautiful to hurt.

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The way he looked at me... i'll never forget it.
He cares about me, we'll take care of each other now.
I'm not allowed to talk to the other patients... but i don't care.
He'll be my exception.
Anyone who gets in my way will...fall.
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I caught brother today with one of the guards.

They weren't exactly quiet about what was going on.
I opened the closet door, and there they were... doing unseemly things. He had my brother against the wall, and their faces were red with embarassment.

I didn't mean to attack the guard... my brother told me to stop, but I couldn't. The guard wasn't very hurt by me, but he was scared... I could see it in his eyes.
I want my brother to be happy, but I can't help my urges to hurt people.
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I've learned that the guard's name is Mathias. He talked to me today, and promised to take care of my brother. I trust him to do so. I could see things in his eyes... that made me trust him. His eyes are so pretty. I can see why Lukas likes him so much.

But I have better eyes on my mind. My lovely, lovely honey brown ones on my lovely lovely Leon. I still watch him every day. Sometimes we talk, sometimes sit in silence.

I could never hurt him. I could never do anything bad to him... I think I love him. I do. I do love him.
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Today Lukas told me he's moving into Mathias' room.

He's abandoning me... I don't know what to do anymore.

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Today Lukas moved out of my room. He told me I could pick a new roommate. Anyone I wanted, provided they weren't dangerous and I wouldn't hurt them.

I picked Leon.

Lukas was frustrated, but said it was alright. Why is he so frustrated with me? What did I do wrong? I can't help being the way I am... thinking the way I think....

He needs to stop provoking me like this or I won't be able to control myself anymore.

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It's Saturday, and I have a handsome new roommate.

We talked together for some time, and I found out he does know I watch him. He also knows that I like candy, specifically licorice.
Well i guess that makes us both stalkers.

It got late, and he asked if we could share a bed. He gets scared at night, and thinks there are creatures in the shadows that want to kill him. I said he could sleep in my bed, and we spent the night laying near each other but not touching.

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He kissed me. He... kissed me. And I kissed him back!
It was the day after I let him sleep next to me... we were laying in bed in the morning, and he just... Well, he crawled on top of me, and just kissed me.
It felt so nice. His lips were rough, against my own soft ones. His hair brushed against my face, and my eyes closed.

We kissed for a good minute before he just got up and leff.

It was so dreamy. I wouldn't have hurt him even if i'd wanted to.

When he left, I lay there smiling for a long time. Then he came back with breakfast from the cafeteria for us both. We cuddled and ate, and i've never felt so good in all my life.

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Lukas found out about us.
He's furious, and is demanding that I stay in solitary confinement.

We're going to break out of here... I mean, Leon and I.
We'll escape, and go live together in a flat in the city where nobody can take us back to the asylum.

Lukas took him away from me, but I found him again.
We made plans to leave.
Anyone that tries to stop us will...fall.
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I couldn't get him out of his new room. That guard Mathias was standing there.
I tried... I tried to kill him for keeping me from Leon. But Lukas stopped me. He handcuffed me to the chain in my room. I don't know what to do. I want to see Leon... why is Lukas trying to ruin everything that makes me happy? Do I have to get rid of him?! I will if he keeps doing this! I will!
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It's been two weeks since I've seen Leon. I've been handcuffed and chained so I wouldn't hurt anyone. Lukas told me that Leom makes me more dangerous to the others around me.
That's not true.
Nothing he says anymore is true.

I just want to be free.

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Today Leon was allowed to visit me. They gave us an hour alone, and we planned our escape. He'll steal the keys from the guard, and unlock my room and chains. Then we'll make a run for it.
This is it.