complacent

face it

I see your face on my newsfeed and
you are so handsome in a sailor hat
even with a piece of pizza stuck in your mouth
you are the most
classy person I see
and I scream
fuck this is gonna be hard.
it's gonna be so hard to look at you
and know
that
you
aren't
looking back at me
thinking the same thing I am.
we aren't in love, just me.
it seems when I fall, people take a
step
b a  c   k
so I'm going to face it
when I see your smile in person next
I will hold back my tears, my feelings
and I will smile too.
I'd swim through the ocean for you,
and you, just a friend,
but still the person I love the most in this wretched world,
are amazing.
and i will come to the conclusion that
I'm going to have to face this world
alone.