complacent

anxiety

my little brother asked me what anxiety is
he tells me no one will explain it to him.
so this is the easiest way to put it so he can understand
inside, you are exhausted, irritable, and nervous, overthinking everything
on the outside you are so awake you cannot sleep, your heart rate is high.
your stomach feels so sick you cannot eat for the life of you
and you keep thinking of all the bad thing that can happen and never the good.
you are afraid for your life for no reason, and you care way too much.
your eyes are red because you cannot get to sleep
and cannot bring yourself to do anything halfway.
so in everything you do, you are exhausted.
and in everything you see, you see need for fixing and only you can fix it.
it's pain, it's being out of breath for taking a few steps because you are running on empty but you have to keep running.
it is hell.