Just your Wingman

What are We?

School, was awkward. Practically everyone knew I had my memory back. So now there was no excuse that I didn't know how to do the home work. It was a new semester and new seating charts. In Mrs. Row's class the seats were in a checkerboard position.
Coincidentally Charlotte and Erick sat next to each other while I sat in the middle behind them.
The whole class time they avoided each other and hid behind books. I got irritated at how much they were so shy. Why couldn't they just go for it.
Why was I so worked up to get them together? Was it that I didn't want to waste my sacrifice? I don't know.

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I walked to lunch with Charlotte after that class. "I can't believe you two!" I exclaimed.

"What did I do?" She said like she actually didn't know.

"You sat there and did nothing. No interaction or conversation
Mrs.Row literally said we could work together for the assignment and you sat there like a brick." I said looking at her.

Her face turned red."Just give me time okay. I don't know my feelings yet. They're all so jumbled. I don't even know if-"

"If he likes you?" I finished her sentence. She nodded looking to the floor. "Charlotte ugh. Come on girl, he's practically in love with you. How can you doubt yourself?"

"Insecurities. My feelings are so...so...so.." He groaned in defeat of her own words. I giggled had her expression which made her smile.

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We sat at our lunch table with Mayla already sitting there. "Hey, what's new?" She asked.

"Nothing. Trade you my peanuts for your apple." I said taking out a bag of peanuts. We both traded.

"Have you seen Tess. I need to ask her something." Mayla said looking around.

"Huh? No actually. The last time I saw her was..." I remembered the field trip we had and what Matt did. "I don't know." I said averting what I said.

At just that moment I saw Matt and Tess walk up to our table. It wasn't too weird that they came together since they had the same class before lunch. The real weird part was, they were holding hands.

The three of us look at the couple in awe. They both looked flustered and red. Matt gripped Tess' hand tightly and she stood awfully close to him. A little too close to be just friends.

Mayla broke out in laughter, "What is this?" As she laughed their faces got redder. I put my hand on Mayla's shoulder gesturing her to stop. "Hahaha... Okay okay." She stifled her laughter.

Tess whispered into Matt's ear and he whispered into hers. Tess looked at him madly. He petted her head which made her calm down.
Tess looked at us in nervousness. I put up an eyebrow. "WE'RE DATING." She said as quickly as possible. She turned as red as she can ever get and Matt put his hand to his face.
We all stood there is shock with silence. We didn't know what to say.

"But... But... You...and her...and the sand...and water...and slam and-" I stuttered trying to figure things out.

Matt looked at me with a sorrowful face. I knew he regretted it. Tess brought his eyes back on her and smiled. Matt smiled at her but he still felt sorry. She giggled as he giggled as well.

I decided to forget about what happened on the beach. They're love is all that matters. If they're happy, I'm happy.

As they both took their seats next to Mayla Matt spoke up. "We're going to the dance together."
Charlotte's face lightened up. "Wendy and I are going too!" She exclaimed excitedly.
Mayla looked at Charlotte and I on confusion. "You mean your both-"
Charlotte realized what she just said. "I don't mean in like that!" Charlotte said waving her hands. "We're going as friends. Wen is done being a grump and is finally going to go to a dance!"
"I'm coming too!" Mayla them announced. We all cheered and excitedly slammed our hands on the table.

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I yawned as I got out of class. Math was horrible as usually. I was off to the gym for PE which I wasn't fond of either.

Something then hit me in the back. "Agh!" I shouted as I looked behind me. As I saw, a boy with a basketball looked at me with a smirk. Ryan.
"What're you doing here. No basketballs outside of the gym. This is a hallway not a court." I fired at him.
He pretended to throw the ball at me which made me flinch. He chuckled and dribbled the ball in victory. "Coach said I had to go to the gym to teach some class. He told me to bring my ball and here I am."

I groaned. "Wow great. That's my class." I muttered. He walked with me as I walked to the gym. "I hate this."

"Whatever Hamster. I didn't ask for this either." He said holding the ball under his arm.

After a while of silence he decided to speak up. "So, are you okay?" I questioned why he would ask me that I felt totally fine. "I mean....Erick told me Charlotte confessed to him after the lunch bell rang."
My heart skipped a beat. What? How come I didn't know about her plan to tell him? How come Ryan knew before me? Does anyone else know? I thought best friend's didn't keep secrets from each other?

I scoffed, "Why wouldn't I be fine?" I said in my most nonchalant voice. My heart was beating fast and my hands were sweaty. I jabbed my nails into my palm so tears wouldn't come out. I bit my lip. I was shaking a little. I didn't know how to feel.

My emotions came tumbling. Was I happy she told him. Was I angry she didn't tell me. Was I confused she was so open. Was I sad and irritated that Ryan knew first.

Ryan stopped walking. "Why'd you stop? We're going to be late for class." I kept going not waiting for him. I was afraid if I stopped walking my tears would get through.

"Hamster...." He started. I looked back at him to see him biting his lip. He seemed to be angry, but at what. Why would he be angry at me?
I stopped in my footsteps. "I know you like hi-" Ryan said in a muttered voice before I cut him off.
"Hey Ryan. Next time you go and say something, why don't you get it right." I walked up to him and slammed my hand on the basketball making it bounce away from Ryan.

Ryan didn't budge though. He just looked down on me since he was about three inches taller with an annoyed face on. "If you think I'm wrong you're as right as left." I said.

I turned off to leave but he grabbed my wrist, "Wendy!" He said in a stern voice. That made me jump. He never calls me by my real name unless he's serious. His grip harden. "Don't always hold back your feelings... It's unhealthy."

"Our relationship is unhealthy." I said with no emotions. His face slackened and turned to confusion. "I don't even know what we are anymore! What are we? You know what I don't care. Whatever we are I don't want apart of! I don't want to be your archenemy. I don't want to be your girlfriend. I don't want to be your date. I don't even want to be your friend!" I said my voice raising.

Why was I frustrated? I don't know. Was it that the bottle was now open. Was it that the feelings I had about Charlotte's confession confused me. I don't know why, but I freaked.

"Leave me alone." I whispered. I looked back at his eyes again which had confusion and hurt written all over it. I ran to the gym as fast as I could. For the first time I was exercising out of gym class.