Trouble in Paradise

Chapter 25

                        Sami's POV
  
  
The last thing i remember before passing out was being surrounded by a bunch of people, and then hearing sirens and guys with badges come into my room. Then a sharp poke in my arm.
  

I wake up in a hospital room. What the hell happened? How did i even get here?
  
I look around, my mom is asleep in the chair beside me, nobody else is in the room.
  
I go to climb out of bed, but i am unable to move. What the fuck? I look down and see that my wrists and ankles are bound to the bed railings with restraining cuffs.
  
"Mom!" i holler so she will wake up.
  
She jolts awake, scaring me and causing me to jump. "What is it, honey? Are you okay?" she comes over to my bedside and rests her hands on my arm.
  
"Why am i in the hospital? And why the fuck am i strapped to this damn bed?" i shout.
  
"Sami, honey, please calm down. Okay? Everything is going to be fine. Your safe now."
  
"What. The fuck. Are you talking about?" I just fucking want to know why i am strapped to this bed in the goddamn hospital. Why wont she tell me?
  
"Do you not remember what happened?" she asks me.
  
"Uh. I have no clue."
  
Just then the door to my hospital room opens and a female doctor walks through. And must i say, she is mighty fine. Her hair is up in one of those messy buns and she is wearing a pair of dorky glasses which make her look hella fucking sexy.
  
"I am Doctor Frenzik. How are you doing, Sami?" she asks me, looking directly into my eyes.
  
"Um. Good, i guess." I tell her, i am literally speechless.
  
Then my mom speaks up and says, "He said he doesnt remember what happened."
  
"That is completely normal with patients when they are on this kind of medication. Its nothing to stress over."
  
"Can somebody please tell me why the hell im in the hospital for?" Im so confused and i dont remember a thing.
  
"You had an accident, early this morning," Dr. Frenzik explained, "In which case, you were determined to inflict self-harm. Your mother was just in time to stop you."
  
"What do you mean? Stop me from doing what?" Now im curious. What are they talking about? I look between my mom and the doctor.
  
Dr. Frenzik glanced at my mom before saying to me, "Sami, early this morning, your mother walked in on you with a gun in your hand. Do you remember why you wanted to harm yourself with the gun?"
  
Oh my God. Now i remember why i had the gun in the first place. I got into a fight with Jackson after school that day, over what he said to me about Lexi. It pissed me off and i just wanted to pound his face in, but it turns out that Jackson is way stronger than me. He had me pinned on the ground within seconds, which caught me by surprise.
  
After he knocked me out i woke up later and was walked into the nurses office. Jackson was still there, but then he left right after the nurse said i would be fine. What an ass.
  
I did notice that Lexi stayed their with me, all the way up until i drove off, pissed at her too. I dont exactly remember why i was pissed at her, but i knew it had something to do with my dad.
  
I remember going home and storming upstairs to my room. My mom tried talking to me, but i locked my door, turned up my music, and blocked her voice out because i wasnt in the mood to talk to anyone.
  
Then when my dad got home from work, he broke my lock and came right in and started to scream at me. He said he was in the middle of a meeting when the schools nurse called him to talk to him about his son. I could tell that he wanted to hit me. I could see the anger in his eyes as he screamed cuss words in my face. But luckily my mom was able to calm him down a bit, and she took him downstairs to talk.
  
Then i remember feeling useless, like nobody really wanted me around anymore. Lexi broke up with me and now she hates me. My dad is always screaming at me because im not the son he's always wanted and i never will be. I cause my mom way too much stress and her life would be so much easier if i wasnt in it. Jackson is mad at me because i was being an asshole and screamed at him when really he was only trying to help. And Jackie doesnt want to talk to me because i broke Lexi's heart and im a horrible best friend.
  
I figured that i would do it when everyone was sleeping so they wouldnt barge in at any given moment. But i couldnt wait to leave this life. I wanted to get away, all of thess thoughts were flying around in my mind, causing me to break.
  
I had to do it right then, i just couldnt wait any longer. So i went into my dads storage closet, where i knew for sure he kept all of his guns for when he went hunting every season. And i grabbed the largest handgun in there and took it up to my room with me.
  
Just as i had placed the barrel in my mouth, my mom walked in, she must have heard me downstairs. She screamed so i frantically pointed the gun at her. I wasnt planning on shooting her, just myself, i only wanted to scare her so she would leave and i could get it over with.
  
She hollered for my dad after that, even though i yelled at her to shut up and leave. She wouldnt leave though, even though i had the barrel pointed at her, on purpose. My dad came and stood beside my mom, just outside my bedroom door. He didnt even say anything to me. He didnt tell me to stop. He didnt tell me to drop the gun. He just looked at me and walked away. I hated him for not caring if i shot myself or not. Just another reason for me to go through with this, i remember thinking.
  
But then when Lexi showed up, i wasnt brave enough to do it anymore. And when she started talking to me, trying to convince me that i was making a dumb choice, i knew i couldnt do it.
  
I heard her say that she cared about me and thats when reality kicked back in and i took in the fucked up situation that i put not only muself in, but also my family, and the people who care about me.