I know i havent been on in So very long . Sorry !! A lot has hapened though . And im going to share it with You :) Even though most is very painful .. So here it goess :
Tomorrow ( Friday, August 2nd ) My parents and my Grandparents on both sides are going to court .. A hearing . Let me sum up why then I'll get back to tomorrow (:
Soo I dont think i told you guys ( I cant remember !! ) .. But On May 17th of this Year . .. I was picked up form school In an Ambulance . And sent to the nearest hospital . .. For cutting. I was so sad . And mad . I didnt want them to tell my dad i had been cutting . I didnt want anyone to know ! In a way i was EMBARRASSED ! :o The school was going to tell my daddy that i had been cutting ! That was my secret!
And get this . : The way the school found out that i was cutting was because my friends told on me . THANK GOD ! if they didnt tel on me I would have just got worse and worse . I am better ! its been almost 3 months sense being in the hospital and i havent cut sense :) ! I am so proud of myself ! :D
But heres the bad part :
My Grandma is filing for custody for me. That is why my parents need to go to court , the hearing . To try and get me to stay with them .. But im not sure i want that . Frankly , I dont know what i want and tomorrow is when they will ask my descision .. Grrrrreaaaaaaaaaat ! -_-
Throughout this WHOLE process . I have learned who really loves me who doesnt care at all about me and who would do ANYTHING for me . Also through this . .. I have been very emotional . And by emotional i mean Stressed. Very very stressed .
My dad always reminds me that its my fault :/ He always says that if i wouldnt have cut none of this would have happened . But im glad its haappening . Im glad all of the crud and dirt from when i was younger is being brought up so he can know just how messed up our family is . ! Im GLAD that he gets to know how MISERABLE Living here is for me ! He NEEDS to know that the things he got a way with when i was younger is not something he will get a way with now . And not just him my mom as well .
EVERYTHING is being brought up . Im happy everyone gets to know what HORRIBLE parents they really are !!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry .. I have alot of grudges . ..
Umm so basially yeah . I have been doning a lot of crying and stuff . but in the end i know i will be happy again :D .
This is all in God plan for me . I have to trust Him ^ And Have FAITH in Him ^ So i can get through this .
I need to be strong so He ^ Knows im doing okay .
i need to do this for Him ^ . And i WILL !
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I will let you all know how the hearing went . Sorry i didnt go into detail but honestly i cant tell anyone about it WHOOPS ! Hahah I love you guys <3
Ill keep you posted !
Also sorry it was SOOOO very long till i posted this . Like i said i was VERY busy with trips and drama . And stuff .. ..
Talk to you soon !
xoxo
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