Invisible

Chapter 25

I never really liked the idea of how random I get when I'm nervous, agitated and angry at the same time. Sometimes, I think having mixed emotions can slowly get me to my grave. Like, right now. I mean, I have no idea what I was exactly feeling right now. But I was so damn sure that those three were included to my mood at this point. And with that, I feel like I need to punch someone or get a good time shouting my anger to my pillow or in to some open space. If I don't get to do any of those things, I might as well explode.

I sat there, waiting for JK. I know I have a car, but driving won't really get me somewhere. Maybe I would just tell TitaMadelle about her car and all, and maybe she can get to pick it up herself. I double checked her car anyway, I got the keys and I locked all the doors and closed all the windows so everything would be definitely fine once she gets it. I'm such a mess right now; I can't even stomach to look at the mirror to see how I look.

Everything that Athena said rewinds in my head like a broken record. It's like they're trying to taunt me and trying to unleash something within me that I have to hold back. A big part of tell me that if I don't get to control myself; I would get to hurt someone or worse.

A car parked in front of me and came rushing beside me was JK, the worry on his face seemed to be a little unbelievable. I won't lie that sometimes, I prefer seeing him with his arrogant smirk or teasing grin. The worry look on JK's face definitely doesn't fit.

"Oh, my gods, you have no idea how worried I was!" he rushed to me, his hands cupping my tear-stained face. I didn't know I was still crying until his thumb brushed a single tear away from my face. "What the hell happened? Did you and Darren get into an argument or something?"

Don't judge, I just thought I want to laugh at JK's imagination in what happened. Instead, my face remained smug. "No, stupid," I tried to sound a little irritated but the irritation only showed when I rolled my eyes at him. "Don't you remember that I set up a meeting with Athena today?"

"So? What happened? Did she hurt you again?"

"I would want to say that she did, but she didn't." I told him as I tried to calm my own and wipe the tears with the handkerchief I got. "But it's awful that I am crying because of the information I found out about my family," I said, "Turns out; I didn't know quite lot about the family that I am into."

"How could you say that you don't know a lot about your family?" he asked. God, I thought Darren and Parry were the only ones that I know that were curious. Too bad JK is trying to add himself in the list of those two.

"JK, would it be okay if I won't tell you right now?" I asked him, and was surprised when I sounded calm and genuine. "I mean, it hurts... and... I hate crying. God, how I hate crying."

JK's eyes softened and I can't help the urge to cry again. He pulled me into an embrace. "Do you want to go home now?"

I pulled away from him and wiped my tears. It's good that the tears didn't get into JK's shirt coz that would be so embarrassing. "Yes please," I told him, "I think I need to talk to my mother and to my auntie. Besides, I have to tell TitaMadelle that I would leave her car right here." I pointed over my shoulder to gesture the car to JK.

He nodded and pulled my wrist and dragged me to his car. I went inside without a word and fastened my seat belt. JK went to the other side right after he closed my door then started to heat up the engine and we were soon in our way to my house.

It was a short and silent drive. None of us thought it would be a good idea if someone speaks. And I would admit that I liked the set up coz I don't know myself if I could get into conversation without ending up distracted and crying because I would get to remember my talk with Athena.

At long last, the car ride stop and I found myself stomping my way to the insides of the house, with JK behind me. "Nicole, with such short legs, you sure are a fast walker." He breaths heavily as he tried to catch up. "And please... don't storm to your mother. Try to talk to her calmly,"

I stopped in tracks and noticed that I made a big distance from him. I sure am a fast walker when I am angry. "I'm not making any promises here, Karlos."

With that, I went in the house with a barge and closed the door that sounded like it was going to break in half. My mother went in the main room when she exited her study.

"Oh, where have you been?" my mother started as she spotted me in the main room. "I went to Darren's and found out that no one was there. I tried calling both of you—"

"Who is Athena?" I asked her and basically cut her off. "Is she my half sister?"

Her look didn't seem to obscure what she was feeling. It was so damn obvious that she was more than taken aback when I asked her the questions I just let my mouth to blurt.

"What are you talking about?"

"I said who is Athena?" I asked her again. "Do you know someone Athena? Or shall I say; do you have a daughter named Athena?"

"What the hell is this about?"

"Why can't you answer the damned question, mom?!" my eyes widened in mixed anger and shock. Anger because this was definitely making me angry, shock because I have never been that rebel teen that shouts at her parents, so this activity is really foreign to me.

Her face pales. "Where did you get this?"

"Don't answer my question with another question, mom." I told her simply, hiding the red shade of my face because of anger. "I would ask you one last time, mom. Who is Athena and is she my half sister?"

"She is." She says, her voice a little inaudible, giving me a hard time to pick up her answer. "She's my first daughter from a different man, not from your dad."

That's when I found myself closing my eyes when I felt myself like I needed to cry again. Everything around me seemed to be spinning and I don't know if I might end up vomiting, getting unconscious or most probably both. My hiccups from my cry sufficed through the place, "Why didn't I find this out from you? I have to find out all of this by my own and from someone I barely know that claims to be my sister."

"I just don't want to get into my past, Nicole." she was shaking a little; her eyes were flooded with tears that were threatening to fall. "I just—"

"Did you use my father for something?" I asked her. "Why didn't you at least allowed me to meet him?" I was trembling a little and was seconds away from completely shouting at her. "All my life, I was suffering to the fact that I am forgetting my father's face and the small information I know about him. Everyday, I would slowly find myself hating my dad with the thought that he left us, but the truth is, you were the one who left him. We were the ones who left him!"

She was just crying in front of me and I have no idea whether if I want to snap at her or hurt her or something bad. There was a part of me telling that I need to control myself or I might as well do something to my mother that would be definitely not good. I was getting a little filled up with rage and when I was about to ask my mother to snap out of her drama and explain herself to me, TitaMadelle entered the house, chuckling at the sight of us and completely oblivious of what is happening. "What are you guys up to?"

"I just found out that she had a daughter from another man, not from my father," I told her, wiping the tears from my eyes. "Tell me that you didn't tell me about this coz you have no idea about this." I pleaded. "Tell me that you didn't kept me in the dark coz you're innocent about my mother's affairs."

Her chuckling face dropped and just by the looks of it, it was obvious that she knows a lot about this too. I was the one kept in the dark about my life and my family. Without in the mood for explanations, I soon found myself in my room packing bags then climbing down from my balcony to meet up with JK at the front porch, forgetting to inform my auntie about her forgotten car in the café.