Why do I still love you after everything you've done. You played with my feelings and broke my heart into pieces. Why do this heart keep on screaming your name. Why am I still holding on? Is there even something to hold on to.
From peace to pieces
xxfloral99xx
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Tell me why do I love you?
When all you do is tear me apart
It makes me wonder why I chose you
When I know you'll only leave me with a broken heart.
Why do this heart keep on screaming your name
When it's clear you don't want me the same
Am I really that stupid to fall for you
To the point that what I feel is true
All you do is feed me with lies so promising
That I always end up in believing
You treat me like I'm of no value
That sometimes I think that it's true
Am I really of no value to you
That you'd have to find someone new
Someone new to fill the things I'm lacking
Someone more loving and caring
You know how much impact you have on me
Maybe that's why you took advantage of thee
I absolutely regret falling for you
But there's nothing more I could ever do
You don't know how much I want to end this
So all the cries and pains will finally cease
BUT WHY CAN'T I FUCKING LEAVE YOU
I DON'T EVEN HAVE A CLUE
So now I only write my feelings
In this poem that you will never be reading
For no one should know of this
But I want you to hear me out, PLEASE
I want to say Im sorry for everything
I'm sorry for always being jealous and too caring
Sorry for all my drama and for being shitty
Sorry because I can never make you happy
Sorry because I can never be enough
Sorry because I can never be tough
Sorry because I can never love you like her
SORRY BECAUSE I CAN NEVER BE HER.
But I also want to say that Im tired
Tired of feeling like I never mattered
Tired of playing deaf to all the rumors
Tired of losing all my colors
TIRED OF HEARING ALL YOUR I LOVE YOUS
WHEN I KNOW DEEP INSIDE IT IS NEVER TRUE
TIRED OF BLAMING MYSELF AND CRYING
TIRED OF STILL CHOOSING YOU AFTER EVERYTHING
You never know how much its hurting
To the point that everyday I'm dying
Every night it's a battle between my mind and heart
And it's clearly tearing me apart
I write all this but it will be left unsaid
Tho' I have many questions it will be left unanswered
For even tho you make me feel like nothing
You're also the one who makes me feel like I'm everything
I hate the fact that what I feel is true
Especially the fact that I have no clue
If I should let go or hold on; i don't know what to do
SO, I HATE THE FACT THAT I LOVE YOU
BINABASA MO ANG
Damned Poems
PoetryWritten under the influence of broken hearts and promises. When the dawn is to come, that's when my poetry becomes war. A war between a broken heart and a fighting one. Damn, never have I thought it would be this hard.
