"Roselyn!!" I hear him call. Why has he come after me?! What is he doing?! I wipe tears from my hot cheeks and force myself to stop to try and breathe.
"ROSELYN!" He yells, raising his voice in a panicked tone.
I try to answer but I can't speak. I can't breathe.
I feel his strong hands on my shoulders and my heart races faster than ever. I turn to face him, attempting to get my tears under control but I'm panicking. A lot.
"Look I'm sorry! I didn't mean to make you jump, are you ok?" He says, calmer, making me feel a bit better myself but I still can't speak. "Roselyn?" He pushes.
He doesn't know what's happening. He doesn't understand because he doesn't know what this is. A panic attack.
I don't know where I've run to or why I panicked so much but I'm just glad he's here. I never thought I'd say that.
I close my eyes to try and calm down so I can speak.
"It's ok, just breathe." He assures me, realising I can't talk yet.
With his arm tight around me I calm down quicker than I ever have before and it scares me. Why does he have that effect on me? He's just a popular boy with no idea what's it like for us normal people in the real world.
When I can breathe again, I speak.
"I don't know, Will, I just don't know. I'm so sorry..." I say, feeling tearful again.
He's only known me two and a half weeks and all this is happening.
"Rosey, don't be sorry, what was that?" He asks, comfortingly. No one has ever called me that before except my family. But it feels good.
"A-A panic attack" I stutter, still trying to regain control of myself.
Then he pulls my fragile, shaking body into warm hug.
"I think I got a little wet mascara on your top.." I giggle and we laugh.
But we're still.. Just.. Friends. Nothing more, obviously. We never would, could, should be.
Dear diary,
I had a panic attack today. I was lost in dance and Will made me jump. And he saw me dancing. And I fell. And he held my hand and touched my hip - he was just seeing if I was ok I guess but it suddenly got too much and.. Well it's a long story. All I know is that he made me feel better, he knew what to do with me even when he hardly knew what a panic attack was. It was... Amazing. Shut up I don't like him though! I couldn't possibly...
See ya, Roselyn xox
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Dear Diary..
Teen FictionRoselyn is a normal, shy, teenage girl, with a seemly normal teenage life. However as popular school hottie, Will, gets to know her in a school project they begin to realise they're more than what they had first thought of each other. Roselyn is abo...
