Dear Diary..

Chapter 17 - She asked for it

Dear diary,
My heart may have been broken but I'm ok.. 14 ice creams and 10 seasons of 'Friends" later... I'm feeling ok. My heart may still grow heavy whenever the last month and a half creeps into my mind but I'm stronger than I thought and I can do this! In the end my nosy parents found out from Bella's mum who heard us talking the other night (helpful, I know..) but they were surprisingly understanding although I don't think they'll ever let me out their sight again.
All I know is.. Together or not.. Good terms or bad... If anything were to happen to that boy I'd never feel ok again. I'm not saying I'm over him and I'm definitely not saying our memories don't make me smile anymore but in the past couple days, I've come to terms with what's happened and reality hit me hard. But I have to go back to school now and God knows how I'm gonna cope.
see ya, Roselyn xox

My neck is sweaty and I can't keep my hands still and I walk in through the school doors and into the sixth form common room where my best friends, Jenna and Selena are waiting.
"We heard what happened, honey!" calls Jenna running over to me and smothering me in a hug. I guess everyone knows already then. Great.
"I'm fine, I'm fine!" I giggle, pushing her away.
Selena look at me through sad eyes, "I'm really sorry Roselyn, we know how much you liked him. I can't believe he'd do that!" She exclaims, at least it's not just me who was shocked.
I sigh, "thanks girls but I'd rather not talk about it"
"sure! So what homework was I meant to do today?" Asks Selena, typical. We laugh at her but the room hushes at Victoria waltzes in through the double doors, her best friend tottering along behind her in stupid shoes. Oh my days...
Somehow, I don't think getting Will to cheat on his kind-of-girlfriend was worth it with the reputation she's got now.
She looks to the floor, cheeks going pink as everyone turns back to their conversations.
"Ouch" whispers Jenna. We all pull stupid cringe faces at each other until Selena comes out with "got everything she deserves, idiot" and we laugh together. They always have a way to make me feel better... But with all this, I somehow find it in me to feel sorry for Victoria.
Ignoring the protests from my friends, I walk over to her with miraculous confidence and she looks up at me with blood-shot eyes... I'm not saying she didn't ask for it but this clearly hasn't been easy. "I forgive you" I blurt out, kinda regretting it straight away.
"Really?" She asks, seeming surprisingly genuine.
"Really."
"Wow! Roselyn I-I I'm so s-sorry," she apologises, her voice wobbling. To be honest I'm quite taken aback by her attitude towards me after that little show last week.
"I was jealous. I've always liked Will to be honest and then rather than me he went for a girl li-" She stops. I laugh out loud, shocked by the lack of intelligence this girl possesses .
"Erm.. Sorry" she gulps.

"Don't worry about it. You know something? My mother always taught me to give my used toys to those more in need and to be honest, I definitely think that's you - well, it certainly looks like it at the moment, sweetie. He's yours." I say, turning on my heels with a flick of my hair. Out of the corner of my eye I see her mouth fall open and see my best friends beaming at me with their eyes wider than I've ever seen.