Dear Diary..

Chapter 12 - The dumbest person alive

Dear diary,
I didn't see him today. I don't know where he was but on the bright side, I got a chance to get my head together. I got a chance but on the downside, it didn't work because my stomach hasn't stopped doing flips since I felt his lips on mine. Our project is due today though so he has to come. But my heart sinks every time I think of that though because it means we won't be working together anymore. But after the kiss.. Kisses.. Maybe everything will be different. I'll let you know.
See ya, Roselyn xox

I'm in a day dream replaying the other night in my head for the hundredth time this morning when I get a familiar waft of heavenly aftershave. Will.
"Hey moody" he smiles at me, putting his hand on my leg under the desk causing shivers to rush through my veins. I smile back at him, my heart thumping.
"Still not my name" I snap but we laugh and it takes me back to the night by the blossom tree. It all feels so right but I'd never have thought it a month ago.
"Where were you yesterday" I ask him, but regret it because it sounds so needy and desperate out loud. But he just gazes into my eyes and replies grinning "why? Did you miss me?"
"Maybe" I break eye contact and stare out the window again.
"It was the anniversary of my dad's death. My mum doesn't make me go to school that day" he says casually
I turn to look at him not sure what to say. Did I mess up again?
"Oh I-I" I start but he interrupts.
"It's ok, Rosey, don't worry" he assures me, smiling. "Any time I was down I thought of the other night with yo.." He trails off.
I look at him through my eyelashes and grin "that actually meant something to you..?" I ask softly.
"Everything" he replies in a whisper
"I haven't stopped thinking of it..." I admit, not being able to wipe the smile off my face,"But I convinced myself it's just something that you do all the-" I stop. Crap that sounds awful and I know it did to him too because his smile drops and he stares at his lap.
"Yeh. I guess lots of people would think that.." He mumbles
"No no I'm sorry! I know you're not like that, I shouldn't have said it" I ramble on at him apologetically
"No everyone seems to have that impression of me. It's no big deal Roselyn don't worry" he says bluntly. I'm the dumbest person alive - I've hurt him.