We Are The Gummers (part one)

Why?

"Why me Why now Why him" Meryl kept crying

"I don't know my darling" Don said threw shedding tears

"but why I was so ready to give all my love to him but why did he have to go he went to early just like John why does God do this to me why don't get me wrong I'm so glad I met you because I wouldn't of had it any other way but why" Meryl sobbed even harder thinking of all the people she lost in her life

"I know that, but what I also know is that the reason he takes people away from you is because he wants to show you what great strength you have and that this is apart of the plan has for you" Don soothed

"but but but I love him so much and now he may never know how much I love him" Meryl cried

"he already knew" Don said with finality Don knew that Meryl loved John and that she always will but her knew that even if John was alive they still would be where they where and that Don was Meryl's saving grace when John died and now he had to be that again this time he got to grieve to.

"you think so " Meryl stop crying but she still had the hitched breathing

"I know so he is our baby he knew that from the moment he was made" Don soothed as  he bent down and kissed their son on the head when a nurse came over to take him away Meryl didn't want to at first but Don coaxed her into it and so she kissed him and handed him away crying fresh tears as she did it was like a new wound was made every time something happened that involved him and every time she would cry

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the day of the funeral they decided to cremate him so they could spread some of his ashes in their garden so they didn't have to go far to be with him and they thought of it as the symbol of rebirth because the flowers would come back every years and every years they would remember the son they lost because the world wasn't ready for him and that's how they like to think of him to great for this world.

"I'm so sorry fro you lose my darling I know what it is like" Her mother whispered as she hugged her and it seemed as though Meryl clung to her mother's shirt for dear life "oh my baby every thing will be alright trust me everything will be just fine" she tried to sooth but nothing seemed to work she just clung harder and cried even harder once that part of the funeral was over they headed to the graveyard her parents had taken the kids because Grace didn't understand what was happening so she was happy and that made Meryl cry even more she was an emotional wreck which is to be normal in most cases but Meryl believed it was her fault and not even what her mother said the day she lost him could change that

when they made it to the grave yard they buried the urn he was in and said some nice things and kind things after one of those Meryl had to walk away Don went after her but she was crying to the point where she collapsed in the woods that where feet from the grave site and cried Don came to her and knelled down beside her and he just held her even he himself cried and men don't like crying in front of their wives and Don never cried in front of Meryl on less there was a true reason for it and this was the top reason loosing some you love

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sorry for the short chapter but I needed to update and this is what I got