To the one who wants to end it all,
I get it. I wish I didn't but I do.
I get what it's like to be awake at 3 am, wondering if your existence actually matters in the world. I get what it's like to get sucked in to the hell we call our mind. I get what it's like to sit and ponder on the idea of death, then sit there and list multiple ways you can die. I get what it's like to feel like the only thing that dulls the pain is pain itself.
I get it.
I get it and I'm sorry.
I really am.
But if I have to stay here and work extremely hard to find solutions to these dark problems, you have to promise me one thing.
Don't go tonight.
I'm not going to write a long paragraph about the life you have ahead of you. You know all about the endless possibilities. What I will say is simple.
Tonight cannot be the night you go. You're incredibly strong, look how far you've already come. You're a human being who is loved so much. Just look around.
If you end it all tonight, the world will never be the same. Your best friend will stay up every night wondering what they did to make you think that you didn't matter. Your sister will cry herself to sleep at night, trying to understand how she failed on showing you how much you mean to her. Your father will breakdown, trying to understand how he didn't see the pain you were going through. The man on the train who always sat three seats in front of you and wore a hat that never matched his outfit will get hit with a sudden realization that even though he didn't know you personally, he cared so much.
The people around you will be impacted tremendously.
So to the one that wants to end it all... As much as you think this is the only solution, please don't go quiet into the cold night.
