To my surgeon,
It's been two weeks since I've had surgery on my right knee. It feels incredible, I wish I had it done sooner.
I had my left knee operated on in August of 2015. I had no other choice, I had finally gotten as far as I could with the shitty knee I had. I was terrified. As much as I want to be a surgeon, I don't fancy laying on operating tables. It's like laying on rock, it's not too comfortable.
But fast forward to two weeks ago, I was actually quite calm. I knew what to expect, I just wanted it over and done with. The hospital gowns weren't flattering at all, I looked like a giant purple teddy bear.
Then you came in. You went over the procedure, risks, etc, etc, etc. You had asked if I had any questions, and indeed I had just one. You laughed so hard, it was great but I don't think you fully understood how important it was to me to have the scars on each knee be symmetrical. I needed them the same or I'd go insane. I will say, for such an odd request, you did very well. They're almost perfect. So thank you for that.
On a more serious note, two days ago, you cleared me for dance. I can't express how amazing it felt to put my brand new clogs on and just dance. I know it doesn't seem like much, having to take thousands of breaks and all, but dance sets me free.
The only reason I even considered having either knee operated on was because without it, I wouldn't have been able to continue dancing. Clogging is like breathing, I can't live without it.
Through dance I've gained a place where the shit in my mind have no voice anymore. I'm free when I dance, I can finally breathe. My team has become my family, giving me a place where I actually belong. Clogging is my whole world.
Without you, I wouldn't have been able to continue dancing. You gave me another chance, a chance to keep going regardless of my situation. It took time, and it's still taking time, but I can dance again.
And I have you to thank for that.
So to my surgeon... You do this for a living, you do it everyday without blinking, but you've given me the chance to continue doing what I love to do. I can't thank you enough for giving me my life back. I wish to follow in your footsteps, to become a surgeon as well. I want to be able to give somebody else the opportunities you gave me, I want to be able to make somebody as happy as you have made me. I can't thank you enough.
